Today

Life after SYF, hmm. No need for flipping through bags looking for scripts anymore, no excuses for not doing homework anymore, no extreme intense Friday CCA days, no more Saturday rehearsals..

Wednesday - Was very sad and insecure, about everything. I really need a friend now who I can talk to. I really need someone who I can find 24/7, be it 7am in the morning, 12pm, in the afternoon, 6pm in the evening or even 3am in the early morning hours.. I'm very sad and insecure, I need people to reassure me that everything is gonna be alright.. I'm gonna be alright. Nothing's gonna change. Life's gonna be the way I want it to be..

Thursday - Went for a speech competition thing and I was really nervous, I swear I was FORCED into it... Sigh. Anyway, it is all over so never mind, who cares. Thursday was an extremely suckish day for me. Woke up in the morning to be nagged at. I even wanted to.... Forget it, I'm being such a drag/nag. I'm hurt and once again, I must repeat.. I need a friend. A real friend, one that won't backstab me, one that won't hurt me. I am already close to concluding that friends in the same school as you can never resist the temptation of telling your secrets to others. Actually, I've confirmed that. No one can keep their mouths shut, in your whole life time, I dare you to say you've never told someones secret off? Sad case for everyone, we all can never keep secrets..

Friday- which is.. also today. sucky day, seriously. I received a trophy though, lolllllllll, if that helps the day.. I didn't actually want to receive the prize, cuz as i've mentioned, i was FORCED into going for the competition. lolllllll. I got Silver for the speech compt. That sucks, lol. I would've been happy if I just got the consolation, sigh. Went for CCA and all these stuffs, then after school, went out... Then went home... Boring day, Sucky day.. Waiting for awhile later.. Something is coming out and it'll make me happy for the whole month or it might make me grieve for the whole month..... Nervousness is killing me..

I need a friend who is like a safe box, I can always keep my secrets in it, 3rd time I'm mentioning this...... Oh, I know ! I'll buy a safe box, write my secrets on pieces of paper, and put it inside my safe box! :)