Goddamnit..

I'm feeling super stressed now, not because of exams, so I feel like blogging out all my dissatisfaction and displeasure. I'm very very very very very very very very very very very sad now. I really don't know what to do right now. I don't wanna hurt anyone. I'd rather hurt myself. I'm not into anything right now, as I've said, I'm not gonna give a damn about anything besides my books and my studies and Jesus. But what is this, why is everything coming towards me at this time? It seems like God really wants me to finish up my stuffs first so that I can concentrate and focus on things better.. But this pile of mess I'm in.. Its' never ending. Damn my life and I should be condemned in hell.

MYE!

So.... Today was MYE's 1st paper.. Which is also English.....

Okay you know what? Fuck this i don't know what to type in the blog post about MYE, I feel like sleeping now, thats all I know.

Lets just talk about my life in general and not a seriously oh-this-is-what-i-did-today thing.

Well, Life is............... Okay...? mm.

Feel like sleeping, goodest nights!

Oh & if you all didn't know, I finally putted ( HAHAHAHA IDK WHATS PAST TENSE OF PUT , I KNOW ITS PUT ALSO BUT ... okay forget it i'm lame.) As i was saying, I have formspring on my blog already! I mean, I've always had formspring ever since last year, but I've never really put it on my blog. Well, not for this blog, that is. This blogskin I mean. So ask me anything, You know you want to know more about me ;););) . Just kidding!!!

So, I might be on a semi hiatus.. Or maybe not, depends. So anyway notice the Active/Hiatus thing on my profile box there, Its gunna show whether I'm posting or not. If I'm active, please note that I can like blog and stop for the next 3 days... Exams okay, i'm a hardworking lovely angel . hahaha psh. forget it. I totally ruined the moment. Please be patient for my posts anyway!

Not as if anyone IS actually reading this blog... Am I heard? Ahahahahhaha, Okay forget it. Love you guys. Bye !

to kill time.. 2

HAHAHHA I CANT BELIEVE IM SERIOUSLY RESORTING TO THIS AGAIN.

Okay, We're gonna play a little game:]
Ready for this?
I name some famous guys, And you say if he's 100% hot,50% or not.

Zac Efron?
50%

Robert Pattinson?
NOT.

Taylor Lautner?
100% HHAHAHAHHAHA

Cody Linley?
100% My childhood luvz!!

Joe Jonas?
50% ( the only cute j.Brothers okay!)

David Garrett?
LOL NOT

Nick Jonas?
NOTTTTTTTTT

Kevin Jonas?
Ugh, not.

Heath Ledger? (R.I.P)
50%

Jason Dolley?
50%

Marilyn Manson?
DAMNIT . I SEARCHED MARILYN MANSON ON GOOGLE AND IT GAVE ME A MINI HEART ATTACK LOL 50% !!!

Leonardo Dicaprio? (Titanic)
not.

David Archuleta?
100%

Daniel Radcliffe? (Harry Potter)
0 % NOT.

Corbin Bleu?
not.

Dylan Sprouse?
not.

Cole Sprouse?
not.

Antonio Banderas? (Zoro)
HAHAHA NOT.

Alex Evans?
WTF THIS IS 10000000000000000000000000000% SO HOT LOLOLOLOL

Sterling Knight?
not

Kellan Lutz?
50%

Chris Brown?
100% !!!!

Drake Bell?
50%

Josh Peck?
not

Paris Hilton? (Who is secretly a man:D)
HAHAH WHUT NOT.

Orlando Bloom?
50%

Brad Pitt?
100%

Johnny Depp?
50%

Chad Michael Murray?
50%!!!


Now... Say you were a guy...?
GIRL TIME!!!
Miley Cyrus?
not

Demi Lavato?

not

Selena Gomez?

not

Ashley Tisdale?

not

Kristen Stewart?

not

Kiki Palmer?

not

Lindsay Lohan?

not

Katy Perry?

100%

Pink?

50% She's got attitude yo.

Avril Lavigne?

50%

Hillary Duff?
not

Taylor Swift?
50%

Carrie Underwood?
100%!!!! Used to love her.

Vanesse Ann Hudgens?
would've given her a 50 if she wasnt from high schoolmusical. turns people off.

Leona Lewis?

Not

Megan Fox?

100!

Fergie?
50

Red is Anger

Are you curently mad at someone?
Yes :( , So angry that i'm disappointed.

Which of your family members have the worst temper?
Dunno ... all seems very friendly.

Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
Yea.. haha.

Is anyone mad at you?
A lot.. :(.

Are you usually mad?
Kinda, i have anger management probs. :(:(:(:(

When your mad do you prefer to stare evily or yell?
stare, if you cross the line, i'll definitely yell. Usually i'll roll my eyes.

Orange is Excitement

Has anyone thrown a surprise party for you?
Yes :(:( So sweet!

What event is coming up that your'e most excited about?
After MYE.... :(

If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?
" wow. "

If you could have anything in the world right now what would it be?
You . (L) , just kidding. HAHAHAHA.

Yellow is Self-Discovery

Name?
Choo hung ling, Magdelyn.

Birthday?
15/4

When do you want to die?
Just before MYE starts. hahahahha.

Blue is Love
Do you love someone?
Mymum.

Do you believe in love?
Given up on it.

Purple is Q&A

How many beds did you sit/touch in today?
4. My own & parents & grandma's & maid's :)

What color shirt are you wearing?
Not wearing any ;);) JUSTKIDDING. Greeeeeeeeeeeeen ! YAY .

Name one thing that you do everyday
breathe.

How much cash do you have on you right now?
BROKE.

Look to your left. What do you see?
which is my left?... My wallet, My books, My calendar, My table, My pimple cream ( LOL) , My hair accessories, My Sister's bed, My window, My ringer, My birthday cards, Some soft toys, A plastic bag, A dustbin, My letters.

Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
The remote controller from my dad. HAHAHA

What website(s) do you visit most during the day?
blogs, facebook, twitter, youtube! hahahah.

Do you have plants in your room?
Nope..

Does anything an your body hurt right now?
My head.

Pink is Last

Last person you saw
Dad :p

Movie watched in theatre
Battle of Los Angeles!

Song you listened to
What I'll tell you everyday - Jian.C ( MY BOYFRIEND AHHAHAHA)

Person you talked on the phone with
mom:)

Gray is Today
What are you doing tonight?
STUDY!

What are you going to eat?
Pizza wahahha.

Brown is for Tomorrow

Are you looking forward to it?
No :(

Answer all these statements as true or false.

I am British
False

I love the colour purple
True

I would rather eat Pasta than Chicken
True

My eyes are Green
False

I am left handed
False

I love Smallville
False

I enjoy Family Guy
True

I still love Pokemon

True :\

I still watch cartoons
Trueee

I was born on a Thursday
False!

I am a six or lower in shoesize
True... LOL...

I worry a lot about my weight
TRUE

I feel the heat really easy
False :(

I can tell when it will thunder as I get migraines
WTF . False


I was born in January
false

My starsign is Aquarius
false

I enjoy reading for fun
false

I have more than 50 books in my room
True ( AHAHHAHAA MY CUPBOARD IS FULL OF BOOKS!)

I like eating tomatoes
true !

I was born on the 25th of my birth month
false

I like walking in the rain

True

My parents are still together
true

I have 2 sisters
false

I have no brothers
false

I've been out of my country to holiday at least 5 times
True

I was born in 1990
False

I've never broke a bone
true

I would love to play the violin, sax or flute
true

I write poetry
TRUE! ( well, only once, for my beloved allyson and....... Yah.)

I write lyrics
HAHAHA Omg this is embarrassing. Yah i do. True.

I write stories
True.

I hold grudges if someone does something really bad
True .

I have one sibling I don't get on with well
false

I love watching quizshows
TRUE!

I bruise easily
Whenever my menses come i always get bruises LOL Does that count????

I am photophobic - sensitive to light
false

I hate petrol smells
true

I have at least 10 cousins
True

I have at least 5 aunts or uncles
true

I can count to twenty in another language
true

I like the sound of dripping water
False

I find it hard to relax my body
false

HAHAHHAA.

4 words

Fuck all the tears.
Fuck all the sadness.

I lead my own life.

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to kill time..

FML. resorting to these kinda things cuz I have nothing better to do.

Who is the cutest person you have talked to today?
MYSELF.( Havent really been talking to anyone today besides family&enmin&aldrich&harry&weexuan)

Your last ex shows up at your house and asks for you back, you say... ?
Which ex? ;) . HAHAHHAHAHAH WHUT.

Is the person you last texted single?
Wow, the person I last texted? weexuan LOL WHO WANTS HIM HAHAHAH WHUT.

Favorite character on Disney Channel?
LOL HANNAH MONTANA (L)

How do you type your smileys?
(: and :) and :P and ^_^ and ^^ and :$ and :@ and :> and <: and >: and :< and :( and ): and :'( and )': and ;) and (; and ;( and ); and a lot lot more !

How often do you straighten your hair?
I don't straighten my hair i think. I only curl it.

Your best friend randomly starts hating you. What do you do?
If she does, then she's not worthy to be called " my best friend"

Would you ever go on a game show if you were offered?
Wouldnt even be offered to! & no.

What does your phone do when it receives a new text?
" Ding, Ding" It rings!!! or else just show the alert.

Is your sibling skinny or fat?
I think they're fat. like me ^_^

Was the last person you talked to on the phone in a good mood?
My sister? & yes,

Was last night terrible?
Apart from thinking of something( or someone ^_^ ), it was pretty good actually.

Has anyone ever done mean things to you while you were sleeping?
The mosquito? biting me when i sleep..

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
nope!

What is the stupidest hairstyle in your opinion?
No hairstyle is stupid! Only depends on the person if they suit the hair.

Would you donate blood?
i would want to ;)

Do you scare little kids?
I attract them ;););) NO LAH. HAHAHA

What color is your best friend's hair?
MmmmmmmmmMmmmmmmmmmmm Dark brown.

What color is YOUR hair?
Dark brown.

If you had to marry someone right now who would it be?
Enrique Iglesias, Jo kwon, Dong Hae, T.O.P., Someone as rich as billgates.... I DUNNO. :(

What is your dad's work schedule?
Wanna stalk him? ;);)

Last 5 people besides family that went into your house?
Sis' friends .

Who all have you seen today?
that i know of? Only family.

Best cookie you ever tasted?
The one i baked :)

Are you grumpy or happy?
Happy.

Do you know anyone who does cocaine?
Not that I know of.

Can you tell your dad anything?
Notreally.

Most annoying singer/band ever
no one, actually.

What was the last song you listened to?
price tag - jessie j. ( LOVE HER TTTTTTTTTTTVFM)

Are you one of those lucky people with 20/20 vision?
Not good with these stuffs, all i know is that I get a 6/6 on my card when the eye screening people comes .

Do you share your birthday with a celebrity?
Emma Watson !

Is there a magazine you get monthly?
Does the school's Chr highlights & readers digest count ?

What type of cell phone do you have?
iphone.

Do you have your driver's liscense yet?
Only14!

Is there a book you're currently reading?
The Pearl . hahahah wtf lit book.

Do you prefer writing in pencil or pen?
Pen:)

Is fashion one of your interests?
Kinda, but I hate shopping for it.

Describe your current outfit:
Honestly.. Now, Im only wearing my orange singlet(that is enough to cover my butttttttt ). Of course w undergarments.

Who was the last person to hug you?
Enmin ? haha. or else Kerene?

Are you at all good at drawing?
DUH IM A PRO. joke. I cant judge myself.

Are you good at baking things?
Cant judge myself. I think I'm good enough cuz the food i bake is edible. :)

Have you ever had the experience of having braces?
Nope! Perfect teeth ! *wide smile*

When you were young, did you get in trouble a lot?
Not sure whether its considered a lot.. Doubt it. I'm a perfect role model student!

Last beverage consumed
Soya Bean with pearl from Selegie soya bean ( SUCKS , selegie soya bean is nice but soya bean w pearl makes me wanna pukeeeeeeeeeee)

Is there a name that you absolutely love?
Yeah, Magdelyn :)

Have you ever wanted to be famous?
HAHAHAH YES.

Have you seen the movie Dear John?
Nope. I want to though.

Do you consider yourself to be, in any way, a nerd?
Yes duh, im an awesome role model student. study hardhard one.

Can you say you enjoy action films?
Yes !!! LOVED.

Is Mathematics something you succeed at?
I slap you then you know. math is the ONLY subject i FAILed :(

How about English?
Loved!

Has someone ever told you you were insane, and meant it?
Yes :(

Are you a fan of Lady GaGa?
YES. ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER.

Do you prefer to pay in cash or credit cards?
Cash

Have you ever uploaded a video to YouTube?
Yaaaaaaaaaaa.

When was the last time you hung with your friends?
2 days ago? haha.

Are there mountains where you live?
Nope.. haha , my school have! if you consider teletubby hill :)

Have you ever blown up a soup can on a fire before?
No, I'm not crazyyyyy

Do you have any phobias?
Nope:)

When was the last time you spoke to the last person you kissed?
..

Are you cuirrently listening to music?
In my head yes, BTR - Boyfriend hehe !

Is there someone in the room with you?
Nope:), wanna make that answer different? ;) . Hahahhaha!

Are you a fan of 3Oh!3?
Kinda, but not a big one.

Your opinion on people who live every day like it's their last?
" Good for you . "

Does your last name reflect your heritage?
Mmmmmmmmmm, dunno :)

Who was the last person to call you?
Carolynzzzz

Would you rather drive or take the subway/bus/public transit?
I'd drive but I dont know how. Bus:) ( IF I CAN GET A SEAT ! )

Is there anyone you know who is constantly making fun of someone?
So many, eg, mirror.

Have you ever heard the belief that all Canadians live in igloos?
Just heard it in the question.

Are you a fan of beer?
Nope.

Have you ever tried playing Guitar Hero / Rock Band?
Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. COOOOOOLZ.

Do you enjoy the smell of candles?
Aromatic candles? Yes. normal candles? okay lah ahhahaha.

Where do you download your music from?
Tap Tracks Store. I don't download music. hahahahah!

Do you ever use the aid of Google Translate?
All the time:)

Do you have a favorite sweater you always wear?
Yes but I cant find it anymore?! :(

What's your idea of perfect weather?
A little breezy:)

Do you enjoy editing photos?
Yes! wahahhaha.

Messy hair on a guy, yes or no?
Depends on how well he can pull it off.

What's the most expensive item you own?
dslr? iphone ? my laptop? myself? ;);) im priceless

Are you currently in love?
...

Are you related to anyone famous?
Does myself count? :)

Is there a saying you've made up that you use a lot?
Theres a lot of "sayings" I make up but I don't use them a lot. I use them randomly hahahaha.

Name your favorite band?
HMmmmmmmmmMMMmmmmmmmmmm. band? Does TheCataracs+Dev count?! wahaha. They always sing together.

What's that one song they constantly play on the radio that you hate?
Price Tag - Jessie J. Now don't get me wrong, I love that song, but its ALWAYS playing. like, WHATTT. So annoying T_T

What's the official second language in your country?
Singlish? HAHAHA

Do skinny jeans work for you?
Too fat for it :(

Do you know guys that wear their pants with half their underwear showing?
HOW WOULD I KNOW?!?!?!?

Is there a tattoo you'd really like to get?
Honestly, yes ;)

Have you ever been your friend's shoulder to cry on?
Duh, I'm full of fats and I'm nice to hug! ^_^

Are your teeth perfectly straight?
YESSS. SOMETHING I'M PROUD OF.

Do you think you'll eventually find that special someone?
Somewhere, out there, maybe there is, if its fate... NO IM JUST KIDDING, I WAS JUST TRYING TO SOUND SHAKESPEARISH. HAHAHA. idk.

Have a lucky number?
4 & 6 & 7 & 9, always works for me.

What color is your couch?
Blackgreyish .

How do you normally wear your hair?
dependsz

Are you a righty or a lefty?
righteh.

Do you own a pair of handcuffs? ;D
I have the barbie doll handcuffs. the small one but you cant put it on the barbie doll. HAHAHHA. Its just for show.

Do flying bugs creep you out?
i hate allllll bugs. Every bug creeps me out.

Do lemons sound appealing to you at the moment?
How do I get appealed to lemons? " MmmmmmmMmmmmmmmmm, Lemons, they turn me on. " ?!?!?!?! WHUT. HAHAHA

What size bed do you have?
Singlez,you can fit into it if you want ;);) NO IM JUST KIDDING HAHAHHA.

When was the last time you brushed your teeth?
This morning.

Can you sleep in total darkness?
NO. Sad to say. I'm afraid of the dark.

What piercings do you have?
Currently? Ears only.

Any tattoos?
nopz.

Are frogs cute or gross?
Cute!!!!!!!!!! after i started playing frog toss. omg they're so cute !!!

Do you ever wish you were born in a different century?
Sometimes..

What kind of guys/girls do you go for?
I like guys, and I like guys who... Well, actually look like guys ( koreans & japanese are exceptions, most of them looks girly, but they still pull it off!!!)

What do you have as your screen saver?
computer? No screensaver, its all black. Phone? lock page is me and my sister . Home page is the 4 milk teas from drama mos burger outing thing :)

Do you have a webcam?
Pre installed in laptop;)

Would you ever pierce your tongue twice? Like, one right next to the other?
I think one looks good enough. 2? I think it'll be too close to your nerves? I think it'll permanently damage your taste buds..

Do you like bonfires?
Maybe;)

Look up Community Property by Steel Panther. Listen to the whole song.
WTF HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH FUNNIEST LYRICS ALIVE " if you're a hooker, I'lll pay, if you change to a guy, I'll suddenly turn gay" WTF HAHAHHA WHAT A WAY TO EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS THROUGH LYRICS.

Share your thoughts here.
Have you ever dyed your hair an unnatural color?
I have never dyed my hair :)

What's for dinner?
Pasta ;););) mmmmmmm.

Have you ever had someone draw a picture of you before?
Yep! :) for art class. hahahah.

Does anything on your body hurt at the moment?
my head. headache now . :(

What book are you reading right now?
The Pearl.. Even though I've finished it like 2months ago...

Any bands you would like to recommend to me?
Cataracs (L)(L)(L)

What makes you laugh?

Your face.

What time is it?
10.27pmz

What type of person can you not stand?
Sigh, I tend to be very critical. Everyone has flaws. Theres' definitely at least one time anyone has ever pissed me off. But, the one that I seriously cannot stand is people who plays on their boyfriends/girlfriends.

Care to share what song is stuck in your head?
BTR - boyfriend. HAHAHA

I'll be playing another quiz tmrw!! HAHHAHA.

Goodfriday.

Well, well. Good Friday. The day where it claims to be Jesus' deathdate. Well, if it was our saviour's death date, then I have one question.

Why is it GOOD Friday? Shouldn't it be like BAD Friday or something.

GOOD Friday totally sounds like a Rebecca Black thing, okay, that was totally off topic, but seriously, whut is with this good friday thing?

Anyway, I wasn't trying to be rude or anything in the past 3 paragraphs.(which couldve been 1 paragraph, but I just like to lengthen posts cuz I look like a cool fag with long posts all the way down.) I was just stating a point! I don't understand?!??!?!??!?!? :@:@:@:@ Its a " free country " right? "democracy" "freedom of speech!" Okay I'm just saying all those cuz my mum was talking to me about freedom of speech just now cuz she said something really.. bad. in my opinion la, but she's like ' ahahha no la its okay, this is freedom of speech. i have the right to speak . we are living in a democratic country and it is a free country , its ok one lah, your just too sensitive" and i was like.. " -_- . "

Sooooo, today was OKAY. I rate it a fair. I was like out almost the whole day lor. I was supposed to be devoting myself in books today, but sadly I am a filial daughter and a loving sister so I went out with mummy and Carolyn. So we went to isetan.. Then to clarke quay...

YES CLARKE QUAY!

So I bought sticky ! And I tell you, I'm very DISAPPOINTED with Sticky shop. Let me emphasize this is my first time actually going to the sticky shop itself instead of those Times bookshops for convenience sake. Anyway, I'm super disappointed lah! Like wth!!!!! Queue's in a mess ( very good so can cut queue. wahahaha, I cut like over 5 peoples' queue in one shot HAHAHHA), Shop so small( which makes it less obvious when you cut queue!!!). Honestly, I expected it to be like those big big factory kind of shops where its like " wah, a lot of counters, Service super fast! So many people on duty! People recommending what flavours nice!!! Service lady very chio!" All I got was this ahlian voiced lady that keep rolling her eyes everytime got people come to queue.( But quite chio sia!) But she forcing smile lah, she's trying her best anyway so I think its' quite okay. ANYWAY IM SO SAD & DISAPPOINTED. So anyway, bought sticky. wahahha.

Must. Stop. Being. Critical. Not like i'm perfection lor! But God makes no mistakes, i'm on the right track baby I was born this way. ooh there ain't no other way, baby I was born this way, baby i was born this way!!!!!!!!!!

LAME.

Okay lah, life has been damn boring these days... Don't really have anyone to talk to, shutting all communicating ways with people. Don't know why, but, sigh. Really insecure about myself these days..

WELL ENOUGH WITH ALL THE " LETS KILL OURSELVES AND BE MERRY IN HELL" THING MAN. LIFE'S WHAT YOU MAKE ITTTTTTTT SO LETS MAKE IT RIGHT( was that a hannah montana song lmao lolololol)

Anyway I'll be doing some blogging quiz thingy again today just because I wanna kill time, which will be right after this post lah ( lame shit -_- )

okay bye (L)

Faith.

Now, I'm not even gonna give a damn about this world, because all I know, my existence was pointless. I don't even care about what life may bring in the near future. All I know is, the history sucked, the present is horrifying, the future? I don't even want to think about it.

I'll be devoting all my time into books & Jesus.

To hell with all the things in my head,

To hell with all the hatred I've ever felt,

To hell with all the pain I've ever gone through,

To hell with all the distractions,

To hell with all the uncalled for mistakes,

To hell with all the stuffs that has nothing to do with my books & Jesus.

This is my life, and I want to make it right. If history was bad enough and what I'm experiencing now is tedious & terrifying,

I'll make a difference for my future.

I don't really care how contradicting I sounded like just now, I don't really give a damn about anything anymore.

I tend to contradict myself whenever I can't think straight. Damn.

Forget it,

To hell with all of you.

5.

Wished that I could move on,

Can't let go it's too strong,

Just like that, and then you're gone,

Is this how you wanted it to be?

Everything you had to say,

Sent the tears right down my face,

And now I'm trying to escape,

The misery.

Why don't you love me,

The way I loved you,

It feels so crazy,

'Cuz I don't know what I did to you,

If you're gonna hurt me,

Then do it quickly.

Cuz I'm tired of lies,

If you don't wanna stick around,

Then baby, forget about me.

forget you.

im very disappointed in you, i really thought you'd change. to doubt me - means you dont know me well enough.

you were the one that ended everything. note that you are now the one putting on a strong front. im sorry but i cant put on that act. to put on a plastic smile and that strong front as well as you.

since you feel that this is the best for the both of us, then i'll leave. with no regrets.

i'll forget you & all the memories we shared. i hope that you'll carry on well in your life and you'll have a great time.. without me.

i wont be giving in this time.


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God.

They say when you're feeling at your lowest, God will work at his best.. I'm feeling low now, God.. Are you there? I need you, Lord. I need your strength. Please strengthen me now. Draw me closer back to you. I don't want to end up doubting you, Lord. And I don't doubt you.. I'm just afraid, because Lord, I'm at my lowest. If you're there, can you please tell me? Can you please show me another way? Can you tell me that it is alright? Teach me how to be independent. I don't want to end up hurting myself too much. My heart is broken, my mind is dead. Fix my heart and awaken my mind. Make me feel loved, Lord. I don't feel loved at all.. I know you love me, but I just need reassurance.

I have a friend in Jesus, and I can share all my problems with him no matter where I am. " In this world, you have no better friend than Jesus - who will always be there, just for you" Jesus, I want a friend in human form, who wouldn't betray. Can I have one like that, or am I not worthy?

Strengthen me and make me independent, I don't want to rely on him anymore. I will only rely on you, Jesus.

:)

Happy birthday to me.. Happy birthday to me.. Happy birthday to me... Happy birthday to me.
May the Good Lord bless me. May the Good Lord bless me. May the Good Lord bless me . May the Good Lord bless me..

Today's my birthday.. Honestly it really isn't one of the best. but it certainly wasn't one of the worst. It was okay. For one, i received some bitchy attitudes from people.. well, actually.. only that. But anyway.. i really have to thank some people for making my birthday such a memorable one.. Short update. Thanks! i'll be uploading a photo post the next time i get my photos hooked into this computer.. I promise...(?) :) .

I'm sorry, it was all my fault. If it wasn't for that one line, we could've and we should've gotten the award. If only I wasn't that stupid.. My diction, my voice projection and my lines. The script was also chosen by me. I'm sorry that you all had me in the club.. You all were too nice to still talk to me and celebrate my birthday w me. I'm a failure.

Birthday.

HELLO, as you all know, my big day is coming. :) . My birthday! And as a spoilt brat, I love presents. :):):):):):):) .

You can all buy me a present if you'd like.

- I'M LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO SPONSOR ME 59.90 TO BUY MY IPHONE COVER CASE, I WANT IT SO BADLYYY BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT................ I dont have a credit card to use to buy this case.. I need a credit card.. FML-

yes hi, i need a new iphone cover, iphone charger, fix iphone screen, extra camera battery, motivation to grow thin( lolollolol), less pimples, a new facial wash( its gonna run out lolololololl), softtoyyyyyyssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, barbiedollllllllllllllz, barbie doll clothezzzzzzzzzzzz... etc.

no i'm just kidding, what I really want is the iphone cover case.

And, no i'm just being lame again, i don't expect presents because I dont even have to blog about this and I know all of you love me so you wont not buy me a gift.

NO I'M JUST KIDDING , ( but seriously)

* i like presents but i dont expect them, so, you have to surprise meyou don't have to buy me a gift

hahahha okay being a lame kid now. lameshizzzzzzzzzlez. okay bye im hungry i'm cookie monster nomnomnomnomnom. bye hehehehhehe.


MY BIRTHDAY IS ON 15 APRIL BTW . AHHAHAHAHA. ( lame)

Today

Life after SYF, hmm. No need for flipping through bags looking for scripts anymore, no excuses for not doing homework anymore, no extreme intense Friday CCA days, no more Saturday rehearsals..

Wednesday - Was very sad and insecure, about everything. I really need a friend now who I can talk to. I really need someone who I can find 24/7, be it 7am in the morning, 12pm, in the afternoon, 6pm in the evening or even 3am in the early morning hours.. I'm very sad and insecure, I need people to reassure me that everything is gonna be alright.. I'm gonna be alright. Nothing's gonna change. Life's gonna be the way I want it to be..

Thursday - Went for a speech competition thing and I was really nervous, I swear I was FORCED into it... Sigh. Anyway, it is all over so never mind, who cares. Thursday was an extremely suckish day for me. Woke up in the morning to be nagged at. I even wanted to.... Forget it, I'm being such a drag/nag. I'm hurt and once again, I must repeat.. I need a friend. A real friend, one that won't backstab me, one that won't hurt me. I am already close to concluding that friends in the same school as you can never resist the temptation of telling your secrets to others. Actually, I've confirmed that. No one can keep their mouths shut, in your whole life time, I dare you to say you've never told someones secret off? Sad case for everyone, we all can never keep secrets..

Friday- which is.. also today. sucky day, seriously. I received a trophy though, lolllllllll, if that helps the day.. I didn't actually want to receive the prize, cuz as i've mentioned, i was FORCED into going for the competition. lolllllll. I got Silver for the speech compt. That sucks, lol. I would've been happy if I just got the consolation, sigh. Went for CCA and all these stuffs, then after school, went out... Then went home... Boring day, Sucky day.. Waiting for awhile later.. Something is coming out and it'll make me happy for the whole month or it might make me grieve for the whole month..... Nervousness is killing me..

I need a friend who is like a safe box, I can always keep my secrets in it, 3rd time I'm mentioning this...... Oh, I know ! I'll buy a safe box, write my secrets on pieces of paper, and put it inside my safe box! :)

Fat.

Why can't you all just accept my this one flaw? Why is it that everyone MUST pick on me because of it? You don't see anyone who has this same flaw being humiliated because of it don't you? Why does it seem like it is only me? The way my best friend back-stabbed and betrayed me was by this, the way my teachers humiliate me is also because of this. The way my friends laugh at me is also because of this. When I am judged, I'm always judged because of it. Do I really seem that flexible and that I don't take jokes the hard way? You all should really know how much I'm hurting inside. When I try to get my point across to you all and talk to you all about it, you would say that it is really nothing, but truth is?
I don't really want to elaborate on what this is, but I'm serious. I know this better than all of you because I am me and I don't want anyone to come and judge me because you think you know me.. You won't be able to reach that state where you are in the rightful position to judge me because of this.

If you have comments about me, keep them to yourself. I don't even want to know or hear you breathe even a word about me. Don't think you can talk about me when you don't even know me.

I am me, I have my flaws, you have yours too.

SYF'11

Everything will finally come to an end... The pain... The fear... The stress... The tears... I'll not feel anything anymore. It is like an eternal blockage and I'm glad this is happening... Goodbye to all these pain, fear, stress, tears for life. I'll not be seeing you anytime soon.

Goodbye........

GOODBYE TO SYF! :) .

HAHAHAHHAHA HELLYEAH. NO MORE SATURDAY REHEARSALS, NO MORE AFTER SCHOOL MONDAY REHEARSALS, NO MORE STRESS, PAIN, FEAR, TEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLYEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. GOODBYE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was my SYF and i swear it ROCKED! :) . Loved ttttttttttttttttvfm . I wasn't afraid at all till we reached acjc theater. It was the cold aircon which made me feel stress because I know it just a few moments.. SHOW TIME. But guess what?! Its' all over! And i've never felt this free before. Hell yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhz.

But.. Hello to homework, Hello to more revisions, Hello to a lot more stuffs...

But at the same time, HELLO TO FUN FRIDAY REHEARSALS, HELLO TO LONG SLEEPS TILL AFTERNOON ON SATURDAYS, HELLO TO EVERYTHING THATS HAS TO DO WITH FUN! HELLO FRIED CHICKEN, HELLO TO ANYTHING THAT MIGHT CAUSE MY THROAT TO GET SORE, HELLO TO BREAKING MY LEGS AND HAVING FUN AND HELLO TO GOING OUT W MY FRIENDS ON MONDAY, SATURDAYS AND WHATSOEVER!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLYEAHHHHHHHHHHHZZZZZZZZXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX


It was a pretty good run, i rate a 8/10 :) . I hope we get silver / Gold / GWHs. Keep us in your prayers guys!!!!!!! :)

Loves!

Yuesongzzzzz

HELLO YUESONG. OK BYE

Jami's

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! I just reached home from safra and I had an amazing time when we were all singing at partyworld! Extremely fun lor!!

Let me start w my morning first. Woke up early this morning, thinking to myself " Yay today is such a greatt da- Wait, i have SYF rehearsals. -_- " And then i remembered my SYF is in 3days.. Goddamn. -_- . So, yeah, I bathed, wash up, got ready. Took daddy's car to school and all, then when I reached school, met some people in the canteen and went to hall, which soon left because we needed to shift venue to gallery cuz of CF or something. So yeah, after rehearsals ended, left school at about 2+ then went to Mos to eat with drama friends, then went home, changed then left house again to go to safra.

Then, my day officially started. It was super fun! I reached at about 5-6+ then we all sang and all and took many many photos! hehe. After that, me and Sianglin cabbed to northpoint to sneak a birthday cake in for Jami !! :) . Super fun ! Then we walked from safra to north point and we all left each other there. hahaha

Oh yea, and remind me to NEVER EVER GO TO SAFRA AGAIN, unless i have a lot of money and i have nothing to do w the money or if i have a nice friend who's treating me. So expensive.!!

Today is a good day! okay i don't really know how to end this off so yeah. I'll be posting pictures in awhile, byebye!! :)

imysfm.

Why? You used to make me smile almost everyday, you used to always be there for me, you used to always care for me, but it seems like everything is fading.. You are fading.. I miss the old you, I miss how everything seems perfect. I miss the beginning. I miss everything about it. Don't doubt me, everything was never real. The only thing that was real is what I feel about you.......

I have so many things to blog about now.. I'm a total idiot, I should just screw myself and die. I really hate this feeling. I feel cheap. I'm such a whore. Me & my whorish acts should just be non-existant to this world. Perhaps the world would/could have or would be a better place, and you'll be much happier with someone else. Someone worthy of you, someone who will be there for you. Someone unlike me..

Never ask for too much, because too much is still never enough. &, when it comes to the point where it is more than enough, you'll start to realize, what you really need is gone...

Its' more than enough. I'm losing you. We're losing each other. Can we rewind back? Or rather, If i had the option, I'd rewind back to the start where I would've never met you, just so that your life would've been better.

I'm a slut. I don't deserve you.

Anyway, I'm super angry now!!
10mins ago I was feeling sad and all, but now i'm totally angry ! I swear I can bite off someone's head now. I hate hate hate you! Stop spreading rumors about me, PLEASE. I hate hate hate you. I don't even like you at all, why are you telling everyone that I like you and/or I had sex with you and/or I'm not a virgin? Idiot you... I rejected you, get that clear in your head. I feel like breaking your bones right now since you're so small and skinny. I hate hate hate you. :(