Loved.

Thanks a lot for humiliating me outside in public in front of so many people. Thanks for always ruining my Christmas week. Thanks for making me feel so loved.

Yup, love. Soooo much love. Your priorities are wrong. You choose inanimate objects over a real deal human being over here who is of blood relation to you.

Thanks for giving me this cold shoulder. Youre always ruining my Christmas week and our fights are always about money. For 4 consecutive years, we always fight. Fight, fight, fight, fight.

Fuck money. The same bloody reason why we always fight. Fuck money, fuck money, fuck money.

I want to be a fucking millionaire and throw thousand dollar bills at your face showing you that I've made it, I've made a stand on this world.

I'll show you that I'm capable of things more greater than this.

Insomnia

Hello, haha. It's 5.46 now, and I've just hung up a 5hour skype call.

SLEEP.
The place where you can runaway from your problems, the place where it disconnects you from the world temporarily. Sleep is important right? For my age, my recommended hours are 8. Apparently, my body clock is so screwed that I can only sleep for 6 hours and I won't feel tired anymore. How sucky.

Most of my friends should be sleeping now, It's 5.48. Come on, haha. Maybe I should sleep too. Maybe I should. Or should I stay awake all the way? I don't know. I'm so tired.

Anyway, so I went out with Baoer and Marcus tong today to do some christmas shopping. Cabbed over to Marcus' place then cabbed back to woodlands to meet baoer. Didn't really buy anything. So, afterwards, I went to suntec to meet my mom to get some stuffs for friends too. And we bought the sexiest garrett's popcorn! So happy hehehe. Then we ate a really late dinner at about 915. Then we headed back home.

Anyway, it's already past 12 but, happy belated dong zhi jie! :) . It was yesterday ( 22/12 ) and most of my friends had gatherings with their families and all to eat tangyuan. Haha, my family didn't even know such a festival exist. So I suggested going chinatown to eat. But they didn't reply.. So, guess we'll be going on like eve of Christmas :) .

So, ya.. Blogging got me disconnected from my surroundings. Deeply immersed in thoughts of what I should type and all. It's like 5.55 now. So that sucks.

I'm considering making DD my main blog, but I'm not sure if I should! Maybe I should, maybe I shouldn't.. I don't know, I'll have to see about it later. Gahaha.

I love the peacefulness of the night where there's no noise but just me typing my random rants onto this blog post. It feels good to have like the whole night to yourself. :)

Anyway, I shall go off now. :) Maybe I'm going to sleep haha. Okay anyway, nights. Bye!

Love?

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” - Neil Gaiman

Love is hard to define. Love may seem like one thing now, and it may be something else later. Love has a lot of meanings, and it's just how you define it in your own perception.

Gahhaa, I've been through 2 years of plain ignorance of what the person is doing with his life right now. I have been through 2 years of ignorace, pain, and guilt. He probably doesn't remember me anymore, but I do. Gahahhaa.

I'm moving on. I can't think of you my whole life, I have been waiting for too long. Should already forget you by right now. I guess, I have to.. So.. Good bye, so long. For now.

Dillemma

What do you do when your heart's in two places?

I know I shouldn't have said some things, and I know some things were meant as my own secret. You are so alluring. You have this strange presence that makes me want to get to know you better. But yet, I know I shouldn't.

Good evening, readers. I'm back blogging.
A year has passed and I'm still on s-anctifiedhearts.bs What an accomplishment. This blog has stood by my side through thick and thin. A year, a year. I can't believe 365 days has passed. Actually, more than 365. Haha. Started this on 28/11 I think, cant recall.

I'm itching all over, I wonder if it's my chicken pox. I have not gotten them yet. Am I too strong or is it just because I'm too healthy? Either ways, it's good. Haha! But yet, getting chicken pox at an older age is bad.

This sucks, this month, or these few months in fact, has been a roller coaster ride. I can't tell any longer what's wrong and what's right. I am losing my sense of direction.. Sometimes I just want to go in to trance and forget about this world.. Forget about all these pain and suffering that I have been going through.

It's 10 o'clock. Maybe I shouldn't blog anymore. Have I been updating my life recently? I've got a job. I doubt I've mentioned that on my blog. I've lost important people in my life the past few months starting from September. I've got my results too. Oh, VP of drama club too. What else, what else.

I'm trying to summarize my life up in a few sentences but it seems like it's not working. I tend to forget things. Or is it that my life hasn't been anywhere near interesting where I can blog about it? Maybe, maybe.

I'll try to blog more often nowadays, and I promise this is not an empty promise. I really have to learn how to start blogging continuously everyday.

Speaking of blogging, I have a new blog. If you guys follow me on twitter, like literally follow and actually read my tweets, I have been talking about SH and DD. This is obviously SH. DD's my new blog. Haha, try finding out what DD is an acronym for. Good luck with that.

Nights readers, this was a really short update. -/ Luv.

12/12/11

Mark my words, you'll never fucking forget this day. 12/12/11.

Fucked up

It's been so long since I ranted with vulgarities, but who the fuck cares. I'm
FUCKING pissed off now. whatever I fucking do, you all have a bloody fucking restriction for me. I never have any fucking freedom. Oh, thanks a lot. You care so much for me til I'm not appreciative? Ya fuck you guys. You keep telling me I'm rude when you don't know how much Im fucking suffering. It's not my obligation to be shouted at every morning you know. What the fuck. Ignoring little selfish brats. You are all so fucked up. Thanks a lot for making my morning so horrible every fucking day.

_l_

All I wanted was to have a little more freedom. Thanks a lot now I know how much you trust me. Selfish little ignorant brat.

10th

It's 10th of November, do you remember what exactly happened on 10/11 years back? Do you recall what you told me on tenth of november? Maybe I have not fully let go of this relationship yet, but I will, someday and somehow.

Love is but a game. We will all lose in the end, you can lose by the other opponent " cheating " or you can lose by " dying " or even stopping communications. I've been defeated, but I can never concede defeat.

You see this? This is how much I love you. And this is how long I've been waiting for you. I've waited for you for two bloody years, and where are you? Having more girls by your side?

Don't you remember your lips against mine? Don't you remember your hands interlocked with mine? Don't you remember your chest pressed on mine? Don't you remember anything? Do you even remember me?

I miss you, till now. And I doubt you've ever given me a second thought. I know it's been over for a long time, but do you know how much I love you that I'm willing to wait for you this long?

I love you, 1213.

30 Day Challenge - Day 8

Click here to see: Day 1 Day 2 Day 3 Day 4 Day 5 Day 6 Day 7

Day 8 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

Ha-ha. A moment where I felt the most satisfied with my life?.. When I had the perfect boyfriend who was actually there for me. Made the right choice, Had the best guy. Then, it all stopped after awhile. And then again, I was dissatisfied again. Poor me.

Sorry for not posting the past month. I was busy with school, end year examinations. How sad boohoo. Okay bai. Day 8 is da ovar.

30 Day Challenge - Day 7

Can't believe I've got through a week of this.

Click here to see: Day 1 Day 2 Day 3 Day 4 Day 5 Day 6

Day 7 - Your favourite childhood toys.

I have 2 toys i really love, and which I keep for a very long time. Since like I was extremely young.. =x . Its called Mr Furzikins ~ LOLOLOLOLOL. I WAS LIKE 4 YRS OLD. It was what my dad got me when he was at London.. And I loved this bear a lot because even though there was no mouth on the bear... It seems like this bear was smiling at me, and it was practically my best friend up til' last year. I told all my secrets to it.. And somehow, I always get the solution to my problems whenever I talked to Mr Furzikins. I slept with it every night, talked to it every night, kiss it before I go to sleep every night and I also hug it to sleep... But sad to say.. I can't find this bear anymore... And it feels like a part of my childhood is gone.. Losing one of my bears.. Sigh... I'd do anything to get this bear back... hahahaha, and a tear just dropped from my eye. I miss Mr Furzikins.. It was like the best friend I never had... Who was always there for me... Sigh... Ya i should go now... mr furzikins :( ...

Day 7 done.

30 Day Challenge - Day 6

Enough with all the dillydally that comes after the picture and before the post already, I'm getting bored of saying all the 'introduction' ~

Click here to see: Day 1 Day 2 Day 3 Day 4 Day 5

Day 6 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

Zodiac sign, chinese or english?

Anyway, I'm an ox / aries.

I doubt about me being like ox because I'm no way near tolerant neither am I hardworking. An Ox is like a total opposite from an Aries. An aries should suit a dragon more ~

I'm totally like what they say an Aries is. Hot headed, fiery and achiever. I think it's very true because, lol, like everyone knows. I flare up easily. Although I usually contain my anger~. But if it really pisses me off to the extent, I'll get super angry.

I'm a very strict believer of horoscopes. I love reading horoscopes and I trust most of the horoscope readings. There are many fake ones out there, but I always believe the first one I read, because I believe it is fate because God actually made me read that ONE out of THOUSANDS. So.. ya. :) . I love horoscopes. I guess they're pretty fun to read and some are pretty accurate. Like there was this instance, when I was fighting with my friend for like about a week? Everyday of that same week was like 1 out 5 stars, 1 being the worst day. I was really feeling lousy for that whole week. Then, some days, the readings also said about problems with a close friend. Then after that, after we were alright, my stars start to shoot up to 5/5 and 4/5! I was amazed. And it wasn't just one, it was like three readings from three different places ~

Okay bye! Going now ~ Day 6 accomplished !

30 Day Challenge - Day 5

Well hello people. It's day 5, and surprisingly, I made it all the way til this day! I'm starting to get the hang of it ~

Click here to see: Day 1 Day 2 Day 3 Day 4

Day 4 - Your favorite comfort foods and why.

Honestly, I don't really get this question, and the closest I can think of is " your favorite foods and why."

Yknow la, I this fat pig. I love to eat eat eat eat eat !!! So it's hard for me to choose... Taste nice okay already what~ Why need so fanciful! hahahah.

Okay so these are my top 5 favorite foods! * In meals *

Number #5 - " Tom Yam Goong "
Wa SWEAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. MY FAVOURITEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IS TOM YAM GOONG! I love the spicy spicy taste. "Goong" refers to prawns. Sooo ya, damn nice. Especially my sister in law's one! HAHHA

Number #4 - Fried rice
HEHEHE, I'm a very simple person. & I loveeeeeee fried rice. Really. I just don't like the taiwanese sausage. eewwwwwwwwwwwk. ahahha! But ya ~ Especially if there is prawwwwwns.

Number #3 - Crab porridge
Honestly, I love crab porridge a lot. & I'd die to go eat it again! But it's only ranked at 3 because it's so hard to get and also because I can't really find places where they sell good crab porridge. The best I've ever eaten is at macau!

Number #2 - Zap Cai Beng
As i've said. I'm a very simple person. I love economical rice/ mixed rice. Especially with the gong bao ji ding, long beans with chilli and tie ban dou fu. fuyoh!!!! ^_^ .

Number #1 - HORFUN
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA UNEXPECTED RIGHT. YA I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HORFUN. I SWEAAAAAAR. Damn nice. Seafood horfun, Beef horfun or any kind of horfun! I finish the whole plate for you HAHAAHAHHAHA. Ok until the extent la.. I mean, if i'm full then i wouldn't ... So ya!!


okay, now my top 5 favorite foods alone and not in meal. don't know if you guys get it ~ but ya!

Number #5 - Sotong/ SquidPrawns.
heh! I love sotong! especially sambal sotong! bagus bagus! The spicier the better. HAHAHAH.

Number #4 - Crabs.
AHAHHAHA I LOVE CRABS. Pepper crab, Butter crab, Chilli crab.. Any kind! I loveeee loveee loveeee crabs. I think damn nice. AND ESPECIALLY PINCER PART! My favorite part~ HEHEHEH.

Number #3 - Prawns.
ya~ As you've seen from on top.. At least 3 dishes got prawns inside ~ I love ALL kinds of prawns! curry prawn, boiled prawn, bbq prawn, smoked prawn, sambal prawn and everything!! hehe! I love love love prawns. But only 3rd because it's tooooo common.


Number #2 - Long beans
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I LOVEEEEEEEE LONG BEANS. Like i can eat it all day~ provided its cooked and tastes nice la. Hehehhee.

Nothing beats my number 1 tho!

Number #1 - SALMONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
Wow i love salmon to the max! raw, smoked, cooked, grilled, ANY KIND!!! Damn nice. ~



You can conclude that I loveeeeee seafood and ya you're right hehehe. I love seafood and I guess I may get hepatitis b.... BUT WHO CARES?!??!?!! I LOVE SEAFOOD. Especially when like in Bali ~ and you sit next to the ocean ~ then you eating all those spicy seafood ( YES I LOVE SPICE TOO, A LOT! ) and see all the people catch fish and cook it alive for you!!



Hahahaha okay, I'm done with day 5 OK BYE!! damn hungry nao. hehe

30 Day Challenge - Day 4

Woopee, 4days and I am still going through it. But I gotta admit, it's pretty fun to blog about all my views on such stuffs. Heh heh heh. Can't wait til' the end of 30 days. I'm gonna feel so accomplished ~ .

Click here to see: Day 1 Day 2 Day 3

Day 4 - Your views on religion.

I'm a Christian, but I'm not those kind of Christians who force people to become Christians. I worship the Lord but I don't force people to worship Him with me.
Honestly, I think religions are important because at least there is some kind of guidance or teachings you can follow to. You wouldn't feel so lost as there is someone to guide you.There are certain rules that you should follow and I guess that's good.
A free-thinker is someone who believes in no man, no god but himself. I don't see why they should. To have guidance in your life, isn't that great?! Especially if it's Emmanuel :) .
I hate it when someone talks bad about other religions to make their religion the " Superior Religion". I think it's dumb. All religions are equal, but whichever religion is the "superior" one should be kept inside you. Don't say it out loud, as it is a very sensitive topic ~

Ya thats my views on religion. Shouldn't talk much~ 'Cuz, as I've said, it's a very sensitive topic okaybaibai. day 4 is OVAR.

30 Day Challenge - Day 3

Hello, day 3. I'm happy how I'm so motivated to blog each day! Just because I have this 30 Day challenge thing :) . Hehhe. I just realized that I started the first one on October 1st. So I'll be doing this for the whole October! HEHEHHE.

Click here to see: Day 1 Day 2

Day 3 - Your top 5 pet peeves.

Number #5 = People who don't wash their hands after use of the toilet.
UGH!!! SICKENING!! HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DONT WASH THEIR HANDS AFTER USING THE TOILET!!! Its like wtf horribly disgusting la. Imagine you need to shake hands w/ the president!!! Eeee horribly disgusting!!!!! So dirty you can tahan meh! hhahaahhaha okay anyway .

Number #4 = People who change their boyfriends/girlfriends like machiam change clothes.
I mean its okay if you're changing fb relationship status a lot of times and all la w/ different people but it's not cool to change your boyfriends/girlfriends like every 2hours, seriously. And you claim that you love them and that you wanna last with them forever. Please lololol. Makes you guys a little desperate. I always get sick whenever I see people like this. Lmao.

Number #3 = People who scold vulgarities in every sentence, especially when its all in hokkien!
" F*** you lah chao ch** by* , na*ei , u know you messing with limbeh anot? K*NiN*B* , Limbeh dai sai eh, Wa dua pai eh! Le zai bo!?!?!? P*bor , Pu*by*. " HATE YOU GUYS A LOT!!! Seriously lah!!! At least want suan people also don't suan with so many vulgarities lah, I mean lol. I rather you all use english. Not vul-kkien-glish( thats vulgarities, hokkien and english hehe). I mean it's alright if you scold it when you are extremely pissed off to the max. But that does not give you the reason to scold all these just because this guy was staring at your girlfriend or something. wtf Seriously. I mean, it just shows that your vocabulary is very limited lah.

Number #2 = People who intentionally misspell words.
Examples : Are = 'R' , quick = "kwik", Light = "lite" and so on and so forth.
SUPER IRRITATING! Like lol, it's already hard enough to live with p30pl3 whuu tw1t, lyykk th1s. Shherri0uslyy. So irritating lmao. I mean, get a dictionary! Or better yet, go to school!! wtf!! ( Actually, another pet peeve of mine are people who can't speak english properly. I'm sorry but, it gets me frustrated when I spot at least 5 tenses error in a sentence of 10 words.)

Number #1 = PEOPLE WHO CAMWHORE IN PUBLIC.
THESE ARE THE WORST KINDS OF PEOPLE AND I HATE THESE KINDA PEOPLE THE MOST. I mean it's okay if you're taking a picture with your friend or if your friend is taking a picture of you or something, BUT SERIOUSLY DONT TAKE A PICTURE OF YOURSELF AND YOURSELF ALONE IN PUBLIC! I know I shouldn't judge and all because this is your life and I shouldn't be here bossing you guys on what you should or should not do, but I find them irritating seriously!! And this is MY pet peeves, so too bad. I mean it's okay if you're taking like 3 shots or something, but when you take like at least 10 shots in public of yourself with different poses.. I mean seriously... WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!? NO SHAME?!

So ya... Thats my pet peeves list.. Ugh!! Sickening feeling I'm feeling right now.. So bad.. but too bad :) Okay byebye! DAY 3 ACCOMPLISHED

30 Day Challenge - Day 2.

Awesome, it's only 12.12 in the morning and I am already starting to blog about this already. I'm quite addicted to this. Note: I have not read anything that is from day 2 - day 30. I want to get a surprise each day and feel the " oh my god :O :D!" feeling. hahah! Now lets start with Day 2. Let's read day 2!

Oh and I would be putting up a column on each post for people to recap the different days. So ya :) It'll be under "information" :)

Click here to see: Day 1

Day 2 - Where you'd like to be in 10 years.

I'm 14. 10 + 14 = 24.
Honestly, I don't know. I'm a very ambitious person. I have many different ambitions but all I want to be is : famous. It doesn't matter if I don't make a lot of money. I just want to have fame. Okay, who am I to kid. I want to be rich and famous. I want to be as rich as bill gates and as famous and household name stars like, Britney Spears, Elvis Presley and so on and so forth.

I have considered many job options. If I were to be smart, I'd go for forensic science. Lol, I just find them so cool! Hahahha, or else I'd want to live the dream as a lawyer. I've always wanted to be a lawyer since I was about 5? 6? 7? Haha, I'm not sure.

But I have always wanted to do something related to acting.. And it'd be so cool if I turned out as an actor! Like, that'd give me fame! Not sure about money wise.

Then again, I want to be a psychologist. I think they're very cool and they know how to read minds. I know, not a psychic. But, I still have this impression where a psychologist knows whatever you're thinking. Which is pretty freaky. When I was younger, I went for counseling sessions( don't judge me). And, just a few minutes after the session started, the counselor already knew what was going on with my life! Which I thought was pretty freaky. But it was a nice kind of freaky. So it was a nice freaky. Okay forget it hehe.

Honestly, I just want a " Dr. " before my name. But then again, I'd name myself Dr.Magdelyn , because Dr.Choo just sounds... Like a guy's name. I don't know. I have always thought that surnames should be classified as masculine and feminine surnames? Because surnames like Choo, Tan, Long, Loo, Chua sounds like masculine surnames, whereas Lee, Lin, Tang, Kong, Soh sounds like feminine surnames. Don't know why. Heh.

But, that's not the point. The point is, when I'm 24, I wanna be studying still. I just wanna grow up to have a "Dr." in my name. I wanna have a Masters degree or something. I don't wanna stop at a "diploma" or something. I wanna have PhD if I could. Thats how ambitious I am. But, Yeah.. You know what? I can & I will achieve my dreams :) ~

Ok Day 2 done. baibai!

30 Day Challenge - Day 1.

For me to be a more motivated blogger, I have decided to do this 30 Day Challenge thing. I have been seeing a lot of my friends doing the letter challenge thing, but I do see a heck lot of a people who does it otherwise. Sooo, yeah. Oh and if I do have an urge to blog about my day, I'd just blog a new entry after/before my post. It wouldn't be mixed into the same post! Oh and, this version I'm doing is something I got off from google or something. Didn't want to use the same as everybody else! Well, yeah. Here goes nothing.

Day 1 - Your current relationship. If single, discuss being single.

My current relationship is... Obviously Single..

I have been single for quite awhile. For about since May 2010? It isn't about being unwanted or something? It's just that.. I don't wanna focus on things like this at the moment. Sure, it'd be nice to have someone there for me when I need 'em and all. But hey, I've got over that. Yes, I know. I do miss my ex boyfriends at times and all.. But, haven't really found the right one... Well there was one.. Or maybe there IS one.. But, I guess since it's already over, I shouldn't talk about it. He wouldn't come back anyway.. & now, I'm just oversharing. Heh. You see, I'm the kind of blogger that just blogs whatever is on my mind, but I don't backspace it.. So. ^_^ hehe.

Single is nice and fun, you get to flirt around with guys without getting labelled as "sluttish" or "cheap". I mean, you do, but just don't overdo it~. And that line doesn't mean I flirt a lot. The way I say "flirt" in this sentence is by just generally talking to guys. Not like:

"hey baby, nice abs. if i could rearrange the letters, i'd put u & i togetha. ;-) "

OR

"your daddy mustve been a baker~ cuz you have some nice bunnsss~"

Okay, maybe those lines are meant for guys to say it to girls.. But well, you get the point. Flirty lines.

So yeah, I like being single. But I do miss holding hands and that nervous feeling when the guy looks in to your eyes, sweep your hair behind your ears, hold you from behind your hair, kiss you, hug you and feel his warm embrace in his chest...

Okay, I read that from a book. That never happened to me. fml with my weird imaginations( i typed fantasy at first but that wouldve sounded weird...)

OKBB. Day 1 ACCOMPLISHED!

:(

How can someone ever make someone like them so much. My eyebags screams your name. Sucks to like someone so much that you thinking about them all day is not enough. You have to stay awake just to think of them too.

But you'll never know.

What Im going through now

is shit.

I cant stand it any longer. First, I had to deal with backstabbing, then, gossiping, then, cheating, then bullying, then, hypocrites, then, separation, then, distancing, then, death, then injustice, then, malign.

2011 is one of the worst years, I swear. Met the worst people, promised the wrong people, trusted the wrong people and even, left the right people.

And out of every months, I honor September as the WORST month, " Wake me up, when september ends " .

Malign, Injust, Assumptions, Backstabbing, Lying, Scapegoats...

Bitching, Gossiping, Hypocrites, Frontstabbing, Bullying, Newscasters, Trust issues..

Death, Separation, Unfilial..

Cheating, Distancing, Realizing, Heartaches, Strangers..

Insecure, Unworthy, Inflexible..

" And I'm going through hell,
thinking 'bout you with somebody else.."

Youre her perfect little girl man. If I were her, would you have left me on the road to cry? Liar, there's injust in this family.

Blogging in class

Hello blogger, I'm bored in history. It feels like I've already went through a few hours of it already but it's only 8.14.... Thirty minutes has passed. Sigh. So I don't know what to do now. It's damn boring in this class . Sigh alright let's just end this blog post now and continue later during Chinese or something.

OH YOU KNOW WHAT? I NEED TO STAY BACK ALL THE WAY TIL 245 FOR SCIENCE REMEDIAL. Sian. And it only ends at about what 4. -_- sian

~ Continued

Oh, sorry. I didnt keep to the promise of blogging during Chinese. I was too busy playing my monopoly deal. Haha, I'm on my way home now. my hair is in a mess man, I swear. I can see strands of my hair all covering my face. But nevermind :D . It has been quite a long time since I last had my fringe down like this, AND not get caught. :) As I've tweeted this morning, I had a feeling that it would be a great day today. And it was!! Awesome or what? :) .

Oh, damn. I'm now on bus 854 towards my house and it's like traveling in lightning speed man. The usual 854 that I usually take, is normally slow paced and all. But, fast is good :). Allows me to reach home earlier !! :)

Can't wait to go home. I need to seriously start studying. Especially when my exams are like what, tomorrow? Damnit man. Sigh.

Alright, I'll go off now. bye!

Let's blog.

Helloooo, I'm feeling quite bored now and I'm gonna be sick soon. Exams are around the corner and this is the wrong time to be sick man. There is this mosquito which is in my room and my aunty Just sprayed insect repellant 12 times in my room or so. You can't imagine what kind of room I'm suffering in right now man. Not to forget, my windows are all fully shut and my door is closed. Totally no air ventilation, sigh. Nevermind. Both my aircon and fan is on, that's good right? :'-). NO . Thats worst, the air is diffusing. Or is it undergoing osmosis now? Don't recall if it's osmosis or diffusion. Haha!

I'm bloody sneezing my whole nose off now and my nose is pretty red. Sigh. It's not that it's smelly, but the scent tickles my nose.

I went shopping the whole day with momsie. We were at admiralty attending church first, then we went to woodlands, then Clarke quay, then vivo, then sengkang :) . My legs are aching. I don't wanna go to school :(

Anyway, I can't sleep now because my body clock is now fixed at 11.30, wtf. It's only 10.44 now, so I guess I have to stay up all the way. Need to reset my body clock man.

Sigh, it's Monday already, I really don't wanna go to school... I'm afraid of oral.. Sigh.. I'm gonna stress out this whole week because I need to start studying. Exams is in 2 bloody weeks, what the hell.

Alright, I'll go off now. Bye blogger.

PS, I'll try to update more often now, because I really need a place to vent all my rants. But I can't write it out because my handwriting is ATROCIOUS. Hahahaha, alright bye.

Atrocious day.

As if today could've been any worst. Honestly, everything was starting out fine today. I went to school, happy. Because it was a Friday. Then I got stared at with menacing eyes as I was walking in to school. After CCA, everything started to change. Everything started to fail.

First, I went back to class and I got back my results...

English - 70, A2
Chinese - 65, B3
Maths - 46, D7
Science - 58, C5
History - 83, A1
Literature - 60, B4
D & T - 63, B4
Art - 57, C5
HMT - 54, C6.

Average - 62%
L1B5 - 19
M.S.G - 4.1


Not happy at all. I don't know if I should be rejoicing with my results or what. I mean, I improved....... As compared to MYE. My math's now a D7, unlike my MYE which was F9 .

English - 65, B3
Chinese - 68, B3
HMT - 45, D7
Math - 38, F9
Science - 54, C6
Geography - 56, C5
Literature - 72, A2
Art - 68, B3
H.E. - 60, B4

Average - 58%
L1B5 - 22
MSG - 5.2

Honestly, I am happy in a sense that I did improve my math, and that really covers up my somehow, disappointment when I saw my literature marks. I improved my english though, which makes me happy because I'm now an 'A' student for english. And I passed my HMT, that's good.

But, now, now, Magdelyn, you shouldn't get so complacent now. Complacency kills. Do note that with such scores, you can't even get into any of the top three classes. What am I supposed to take, seriously. If I can't take " a - math " I can just die because I wouldn't have much of a future as what others have been telling me.

Not talking about just a math, but look, if I can't even get in to a bloody POA class, you can just kill me right now man. Why out of all my subjects, I must fail math.. Why can't I be failing like D&T or something. I'd really love to exchange my D&T marks with my math marks, seriously. Why must math be a core subject...

I am complacent and I love procrastinating, a combination towards failure.

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Alright, so after my exam results were out, I went for chapel and I bloody slept. How bad in the house of God. So that was quite bad, then something happened, which I found out. Sigh.

-

So we all went home early today. And I came home to receive some bitchy attitudes so I got so pissed off, It has been a bloody long time I screamed with the top of my voice. Honestly, I was pissed off to the max today. A lot of things have been happening, and I can't even take a bloody break at home. I came home to sleep but I ended up in a fight. That was damn irritating so I was shouting and screaming and all... So I went back up to sleep.

-

Then, someone called me to tell me a very shocking news and I got a little bit more pissed off.

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I'm THIS close to losing it already. Every single thing is not falling in to place today. Sigh, I need a breather, nothings going my way seriously. Ugh, nevermind. Bye blog, thanks for being my sole comfort. I didnt know how to tell anything I just said to anyone. But I guess I just told the whole wide world, hahahahahahaha, anyway okay bye .

A little update.

Hello, blog. I'm supposed to be doing my art but i'm actually blogging. Hahahaha, I just changed my skin. A little less me. Alright, short update. I'll go now. Bye

A little inspiration.

Too ugly.

Too tall.

Too short.

Too fat.

Too skinny.

Too many pimples.

Too stupid.

Too idiotic.

Too clumsy.

Too careless.

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Not pretty enough.

Not tall enough.

Not thin enough.

Not smart enough.

Not rich enough.

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Everyone has their own insecurities. Be it a pretty, thin girl, who's of a size 2. Or be it, an ugly fat girl, who's of a size 14 or 16. All these, are just a number. So what if you stand on a weighing scale and you see a 35 ? And so what if you stand on a weighing scale, and you see 75 ? All these, are just a number. So what if you check your height, and you see a 150?

So what if you're short, fat, ugly, pimpled, poor, stupid, careless..etc. The list goes on. Everyone has insecurities. So what if your sized aa30 ? And so what if you're sized d? Too small? People say that you're not developed. Too big? People say you're fake. Haters gonna hate, and you just have to be proud of you are.

You think the guy you like, dislikes you because of all these? You think it is because you're full of pimples, you're too fat, you're too short? Here's a wake up call, girls. Would you rather have a guy who loves you for your beauty, and can ONLY handle you at your best? Or would you rather have a guy who loves you even though you're fat, ugly, short, full of pimples, poor, stupid, careless, clumsy?

Girls, snap out of it. A guy who, claims to love you, when you're pretty is just plain dumb. He cant tell the difference between lust and love. Nothing is sexier than a girl who has confidence.

Especially, in herself.

You girls, have to stop wishing for beauty, lesser pimples, to be thinner, to be taller and whatsoever. Girls, you are all much more capable than that.

I know, I do wish for such. And I do have my own insecurities. But that is because, I also wanna improve myself. Who doesn't want to be that girl who is chased by every guy, and who is the girl everyone wants to be?

I'm magdelyn. I'm 163 centimeters tall. I'm size 8. Yes, thats fat. But who cares? I can't count how many pimples I have. I know I'm failing subjects. I know everyone thinks I'm weird. I know people says that I'm fake. I know I have a lot of haters. I know people are against my sexual orientation. And, I know how I'm not the first girl that would catch everybody's attention when I'm in a crowded room.

And the thing is, I know I'm beautiful, in my own ways. And I should start appreciating my strengths, and stop focusing on my flaws.

If he doesn't love you, for who you are, then the only thing you have to change, is the one in your heart. Don't change yourself. Change yourselves, because you want to improve yourself. It's stupid if you want to change for a guy.

I know I'm not perfect. But I'm not gonna change myself for the guy I love. I wanna improve myself, for me. And girls, I think you all should start to love yourself first, before venturing out , to loving others. Have confidence :) .

Whoever is out there reading this, I want you all to know that you're beautiful. :)

- Go ahead, talk about me behind my back. Saying that I'm acting all tumblr-ish. I don't care. Because, I've learnt a few things today. I'm more matured now :) And I pity you, if you have to resort to such unscrupulous ways of talking bad about such posts.

Sigh.

Why is it that when we like someone so much, all their flaws and lies becomes non-existent to us? We only remember their good. I am naive, don't hurt me. I do like you a lot, and I just can't find the reason why. I'm afraid you'll hurt me. I'm afraid I'll hurt you. I'm afraid I'll get hurt. I'm afraid you'll get hurt. Most importantly... I am afraid it'll hurt this thing between us. I am so vulnerable and naive. I don't want to like you, but I'm afraid that once I stop, she'll have you... Then I've wasted my time. I don't want to lose you. I really can't imagine how it'll feel when I actually lose you.

Limitations.

Hello, currently working on a project and I'm so bored so I started camwhoring. HAHAHHAHAHEHEEHEHEHHOHOHOOHO. ok so hi thats me like 30mins ago. OK LET ME START DOING MY WORK. I'm watching bian yuan fu zi now 2. HHEHEHE. OKOK BYEBYE!

iBlogger!

OH HELLO, I'm using iBlogger to blog this. Seems like a pretty cool app. I'm just trying :). These days I've been in a wild hunt for good iPhone apps because it is really defeating my app store's purpose of being there when I'm not even downloading any games or apps. I'm really searching for some good social networking or game apps on my phone but none seems to appeal to me.

There comes a time in every iPhone users iPhone life that they'll realize that the " iPhone " is just yet another phone, and the apps, which is claimed to be " legendary " is just another function on the phone. Maybe it's just that the " iPhone " has more games, rather than some old nokia phone. That's the iPhone for you guys. The phone of games.

But I still love my phone <3 Contradicting much?!

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

我还记得,我们的约定. 一辈子,幸福的约定.

Who are you to talk about commitment? What about our promises. The fifteen years. To think, back then, we were even thinking that we'll last forever. Remember 1217? When we said we'll be together forever? When we were so sure of lasting forever? When we even talked about marriage?
她一定很爱你,也把我比下去, 分手也只用了一分钟而已. 她一定很爱你, 比我会讨好你. 不会像我这样孩子气, 为难着你.

I was childish, I was a fool. I can't let go. 1213. You talk about commitment to her, you love her. I'm sure she must be great. I'm happy you found your happiness. She'll bring you more happiness than any of the other girls you've ever been with. Love her, and good luck with her.

Fifteen years, can be with her. If we were still together, it would been thirteen years by now. Two years passed in a blink of an eye, and I really miss you.

Blogging

There comes a time in every blogger's life where they'll realize that blogging is a hassle, and that's a blogger's mid life blogging crisis.
It's a Saturday, I'm bored. There's nothing to do. Sigh. I wanna change my blogskin. :( .
I'll blog soon enough, starting to get bored. Kbye.

Hiatus? on/off?

Apologies for a dead blog and here's a blogpost to "revive" it, just in case if it is still hanging on the life support.

Life.. A roller coaster.
Honestly, I don't know whats going on in my life now. Sometimes, its good. sometimes, its really bad. The good doesnt last long, neither does the bad. Neutral? Not at all. Its good bad good bad good bad. You don't even have the transition for a neutral.

I really need someone to make me have faith again. Not in God, not in myself, not in anyone. But to have faith in faith. Faith, funny thing how when i typed that, I actually gave a little laugh. It doesn't even mean anything to me now. Faith, hope? What kind of hope do I have? I don't even have time to hope for things. Currently blogging because I can't take it anymore. Slogging my ass off every single day and the least I can have is someone to help..? Who am I kidding, no one can help. Piles and piles and piles of work every single day yet.. Sigh, I'm alone, cold doing this work by myself.

Recently, I've been really nostalgic. Reminiscing the past and all. A part of me hasn't given up on you. Yet the other part tells me to move on. But I can't. Moving on is hard.

To all of you out there.. I know, stop telling me to move on. I want to. And I'm trying my best to. But somehow, I just cant let go. So what about this move on thing. I'm trying my best. I know the only obstacle between me and fully letting go is just me. I know it's not that I can't let it go. It's just myself who doesn't want to. Oh who am i to kid, I'm just contradicting myself. I'm actually stressing myself on something that doesn't even require me to be stress about. " Whether I can't let go or I don't want to." It's still the same meaning, it still means that I still do like you.

Well. I do have to let go anyway. It's just a matter of time. Whether I do it sooner or later. He has already moved on. What for stay in this? What for wait for a guy who wouldn't come back to you? False hope, empty promises. I should move on.. Life's just cruel. Always plays a joke on you. I'm just another fool in the game of life.

Forget it. How did life turn to love all of a sudden?

School. A big sigh. DISASTROUS.

Found out that I'm claustrophobic. Actually I knew, but.. I didn't know it came back. Couldn't breathe just now. Feeling restless. Air ventilation was bad, door was locked, windows were all tightly shut. Oh well. Can't be helped anyway.

Recently angry over a lot of things. Too tired to even care.

Well, I'll blog tomorrow or something, got a load off my chest. But i've got more to rant. Okbyeeeeeee.

dance in the dark.

Spamming replay. I love DEV. :)

Just a little note.

To whoever whom has never fallen in love and has never got into a relationship, don't get into a relationship till you think you're ready for disappointment. People around me all being so sad and so annoyed about their boyfriends or girlfriends. You'll miss the feeling of being in love fast after you break up, after you've gotten over whoever, you'd either want them back or want another new relationship. The more relationships, the more your expectation rises. Whoever who's out there shouting " fuck love " and all, I salute you for being able to hide your inner feelings. Who wouldn't want to be in love? Being in love with the guy/girl of your dreams, them texting you sweet nothings.. Really, whatever.

To whoever whom has never fallen in love and has never got into a relationship, don't be in a relationship till you know you are more matured, no one is ever in the right age to love. It's all about mentality only . Whoever said " proper age to fall in love is between 18-30" are all wrong, even if you are a young 5 year old child or whatsoever, it is nothing. Fate works in mysterious ways. Love works in mysterious ways.

Fuck, who am I to talk about this I'm serious. Young girl whom thinks she matured enough to love? fuck myself. I'm never ready to be able to accept hardship, neither am I ever ready to receive disappointment. Fuck love, I'm serious.

I hate being seen as weak. I'm strong.

Betrayal.

How I hate hypocrites.

How I hate war.

How I hate hatred.

Why can't we all just live in peace & harmony? Without hypocritical thoughts, without betrayal, without backstabbing. I am hurt. I am so, so hurt. The friend I thought I could trust the most, back stabbed me indirectly. Sigh.

Never mind all these. For the whole day, my heart's been feeling very heavy. As each second passes, my heart breaks to think about my once good friend drifting apart with me.

Betrayal.. How do I cope with it?

" A good friend hurts you more than an enemy ", sigh. No matter how much harm an enemy does, it wouldn't compare to how much a friend would do to you. Sigh..

(:

Hello, it's June 28th, 11.42pm. I have already successfully passed the first 2 days of school. I know that on June 23rd, I said I would blog on the following day, but I totally didn't. Apologies:) . In a few minutes time, it would be my maid/aunty's birthday ;). I'm grateful and thankful for her :)

These few days have been quite a roller coaster for me, I need time to chill out and take a break. And when I mean break, I mean sleep. I haven't been sleeping well the past few days, only because I have to bloody wake up at 5.45am every morning, and I usually sleep at about 12am. So... Yea. Past few days were like that. Ugh.

Anyway, I think I should get going. That's my life. I said I was gonna blog about my life and so that was a little summary on it. Heheh. I'll post tomorrow, I promise.

KPOP!

winkwinks.

Hello, dead blog. Its' been quite awhile since I last blogged. But anyway, I'm back :). Anyway pardon me about the act cute winking picture of me and Yoona's winking pose. LOOK ALIKE A NOT? HAHAHHAHAA. No plz. no. Not insulting any die hard fans or whatsoevs, and neither am I insulting Yoona herself. But I don't really like Yoona. But nvm, itz ok. I still think she's pretty and cute :). Just something about her makes me feel icky. Maybe she's too pretty/cute and too real that why. YOU KNOW WHATS HOT?

FYEAHHHH. THATS HOT. NOW COMPARE ME AND HER WINKING!!!! HAHAHAHAHA. LOOK ALIKE RIGHT??!?!??! ( wishful thinkings) T_T .





OH LOOK, ITS TIFFANY. I'm bloody jealous. All of them can wink properly man :( Whereas when you look at me..

BLOODY CONSTIPATED FACE. I'm sad. I'm born without the ability to wink. Sigh.

HAHAHAHHAHA SO SEXY. SUNNY !

K la. I should stop talking about SNSD. hahaha.

LETS TALK SUJU.

WHY MY BOYF SO CUTE

WHY YOU REALLY SO CUTE!

AHHHH SEXY FYEAHHH.

I love you.


hahahhaa, I should end my kpop post here. Its too much for me to handle. From cute to sexy to hot to pretty to my husband ♥ fffffffffffffff.

Life is fair. I shall blog again tomorrow about my life and not about such random stuffs. keke. byebye,

Hi hangeng, You lika cute ♥

Complications.

I don't know what has gotten into me. Mixture of emotions. Hatred, Vengeance & Anger.. But on the other hand, I'm also feeling Warm, Nice & Secure. And but of course, bored, and thats why i resulted to blogging. Neutralized, bittcccthhhh. Well of course, certain emotions are towards different stuffs.

Today I went out to SK with VANESSA♥ , Travis, Andrew, Lerren & Zhi Long. Nothing much to touch about. Fun day, and yet nothing can describe it. Hurmz.

These few days have been really tiring for me, even though I'm mostly at home, I'm really feeling more shag than how I usually feel when I go to school, or even go out. And when I mean shag, I mean it as the internet referral term, not what it really means. I have been sleeping at 2am, 3am, 4am ++ these few days,

FFFFFFFFFFF my eyebags.

Gonna go now. Though I still feel like I should continue blogging but, I really don't know what to say. Brain's kinda dry. HEHEHHE, BRAINJUICE. HEHEHHE. okay f. I'm bored. Bye.

mm.

If you don't want to read my nonsensical rants, just skip this post. I am turned off to the max.

A little note before I officially leave you.

" Dear you,
I have not changed one bit. I just showed you who I really am. & if you don't like this new me. So be it. I'm not a bloody facebook group page or a facebook status. You don't have to like me. Before I leave, I have to tell you:

No doubt, you were awesome, & you made me smile a lot, but I realized you weren't worth it.If you want me to come back, prove to me I'm missing something that I do need. You should probably know, the only road we're going down now, is the point of no return.

You don't have any reason to break every single girl's hearts, hopes and dreams. You are cruel. I hope you now know how it feels like to be torn into two. What I've just done to you, is what you deserve, and you ought to get. I hope you feel the burn in your heart. I hope you know how it feels like to lose the one and only person whom you may think understands you, and whom is close to you.

That's how most of the girls felt after you crushed them so badly.

You, are a waste of time. A flirt, I may say. These few months with you, were fun, to be honest. You were nice, but falling in love with you wasn't my ulterior motive. Before I loved, I had learnt about things that girls hate about you. You may seem like the nicest and most perfect guy out there. But one flaw... Just that one flaw, can bring your whole reputation down. And to hell with you. You gave so many girls false hopes, even me. You came crawling back. But that's just stupid. You're being stupid.

You are stupid.

Do you know how it feels like to be back stabbed? You do now. What you've done to the girls were tons more painful than what I had done to you. " What goes around, comes around. What goes up, must come down." Don't act pitiful, because nobody would want to sympathize a filthy little ignorant imbecile like you.

I'll tell you one thing. I hate how you treat girls. My own sisters, in fact. You take advantage of their trust. You take advantage of them. They were all so nice to you, and yet? You sweet-talked, gave them some hopes & then crushed them down badly with ice. You should know what I totally mean.

Horrendous, absolutely horrible.

I hope you feel the burning sensation in your heart. You don't know what you're missing. I am sick and tired of ALL your lies. I hope you know this post is referring to you. I hope you know how much you've hurt the girls. I hope you feel the vengeance in your heart. I took advantage. Feeling vengeance? Too bad. The girls must've felt worst than what you felt, huh mr big guy?

Who do you think you are,
running round leaving scars.
Collecting your jar of hearts
& tearing love apart.
You're gonna catch a cold,
from the ice inside your soul.
Don't come back for me.
Don't come back at all.

This would be the last time I ever blog about you.
PEACE. "

Hellolove,

Its' been so long since I really last talked about my life on this blog..
Still not gonna talk about my life today.

Starting a blogshop with Vanessa (: ..
Mainly because we wanted to buy some contact lenses the other day and we found out like some were horrendously expensive, some were just not even worth it. Then we decided to make a blogshop! To sell contact lenses.. Then we realized it was stupid for us to want to just do lenses, we should sell stuffs like clothes & apparels too.

& so, our blogshop began on 080611,
Yes, its just yesterday as of this post.

Do support ~ (:

I wanna fucking runaway

Get a job.
Earn money
Leave this fucking house.

MARILYNMONROE.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

Some recognize her as an actress/singer or any other famous personnel.

Some may recognize her as a whore.

She's my idol, bitches.

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."

Truly an inspiration.

"I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love."

Ever since I was 10/11, I used to always read about her. So what if she was a whore? Its not her fault she was pretty.

At least she stands up for herself and her rights. Is it wrong?

So what if she was a prostitute?

At least she was pretty enough to measure up to that job.

God, look at all those ugly prostitutes out there.

Though, there are some who are really very pretty.

But, Oh God, look at her.

She didn't have a proper upbringing, she was an orphan.

&,

She was very open about her being a promiscuous creature.

"The body is meant to be seen, not all covered up."

So whatttt if she was a prostitute. She was loved. Better than all you bitches who take off all your clothes and no one even wants to take a second look at you.

"Its better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what your not"

Yes, this very famous quote that all those famous twitters tweet and all those tumblr users quote. This was Marilyn Monroe's quote bitches. You should bloody quote it.

"We are all of us stars, and we deserve to twinkle."

Isn't it true? Way ahead of her.

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."

She sees imperfection as beauty, she sees herself as imperfect.

I think she's perfect.

"All little girls should be told they are pretty, even if they aren't."

God, I love her.
All these quote you grew up with is from Marilyn Monroe. And why are people being so stuck up? Has she ever done anything wrong to you guys? Sigh. Thank God for her, or else I wouldve grew up being timid and not confident at all. She's awesome. And don't let that little "whore" thing ruin her man.

"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets."

Although she's already gone, she lives forever with us & within my heart!

"This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."

Marilyn Monroe
1/6/26 - 5/8/62

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

"Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world."

YANNICK.

Hello, I'm now currently webcamming with my most awesomest brother!

YANNICK! hahahaha

And i shall take a picture now.

LOOK !! DOESNT HE LOOK LIKE A PEDO HAHAHAH .

Theres cute tiny me with big fat arms wearing glasses tooo. hehehe.

Hahahahaha I've been webcamming a lot these days. hehe.

Okay I'm gonna go.

Nick just wanted me to blog a post.

hahahah

BYE (:

Skype me@ magdelynchoo :) .

Pictures.

HELLO. It has been a very boring tuesday for me... Currently sitting here and blogging... I was looking through old photos of me and photos of some people, which i'll not tell of.. So ya..

I would really love to post photos of the old me up / pictures of others here but I am too ashamed of my past and also because I don't want to create any war hehe. HAHAH so.. Since I was using my Mac Book today, I decided to do an " reenactment " or... " re-takeaphotoofmyselflasttime-ment " ( wtf) So... I spent like 30mins doing all of them.. A lot of the poses were really stupid.... But its ok.... To actually take the picture again makes me stupid toooo... Hahahahahhaha,

HERE GOES MY FACE , HERE COMES THE SHAME.

The FAMOUS look-down-and-not-look-at-the-camera pose!!!

Wtf, This is soooooooooooooo last year. but if you actually notice, up there, ^^^^^^ see the pictures? The biggest one with the pink hairband. Same pose!! But from different angle! hahahah. AND THAT WAS SHOT LAST YEAR! Hahahahhaa but i still used it, nonetheless. ANYWAY, so ya. This very famous pose... I used to always do it because when I was younger I used to call myself xxEmoBabyxx ( or something like that, i only know all my old blogs had like " My name is Magdelyn ... I'm an emo girl.... You can call me DarkAngel97... OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT HAHAHHAHAA.)
I WAS JUST KIDDING. I DON'T CALL MYSELF THAT. HA.

So yes.......... Very famous for all those xmm ( who are more "x" than me.[ that feels like algebra!])..

The twist pose!

Put the twist near your face thing. You think its sexy ah. Might as well take with real scissors right! Ok i was just trying to be hypocritical , failed at it .... Because I myself LOVE to take with twist. ^ SEE HOW NATURAL THE PICTURE IS? ^_^

So I tried to take a photo with scissor and....................................
Just.

Look

FAIL.

So anyway, if you combine the scissors hands plus the looking away from the camera thing.. It'll look like this.

Which is even more fail. Lol

Presenting the pose A lot of girls used to do when they were younger!

The NO EYES pose( its not really a pose so ya....)

Showing their shirt, neck, nose, mouth with no eyes... Lol. I don't do that, and I'm sure a lot of my friends don't do that too.. But LOL.. whenever I see these kinda pictures.. I'm always like wtf. What happened to your eyes. Sore eyes then you cannot show people ah? hahahahhahahaha. Ok very lame. llol.

I'mgoinginsane.

lmao. A lot of girls like to do this. and they'll caption like " Too many days without you... I'm going insane...." OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT . " I'm crazy in love with you" OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. HAHAHA.

Wind blown into hair~

So natural kekekekeke. I always used to do this when I was younger. So natural and so freeeeeeeeee. and I look like I kena 18 wheel lorry car bang LOOOOOOOOOOL

Yourself + phone.

Well hello, this is a pose where I used to do when I was younger but I always failed. lol. It always look damn weird so I never posted photos like this. I swear most of my friends who do these kinda pictures always look damn chio.. And I'm always sad..

BUT HEY . This above picture was NOT BAD already for my standard of posing for photos ... because I always look damn unglam or candid whenever i take pictures. lol.

So then I went to try taking photos of what I hate..... that people take of me.

THIS IS WHEN I TALK. AND THEY JUST SNAP. AND BOOM.
this comes out
-_-

( I went to call my maid and ask her a noob question for the authenticity for this picture. HAHAHAHA)

Or when I'm acting cute and then SNAP.

Or when I'm texting or using my phone.
Nothing really but... I look like i haz double chin. :(

So then I experimented to the world of make up... When girls grow up and start putting make up just to camwhore and all... I dont usually put make up when I'm home( because its obvious lol) but ya.. A lot of girls do.. So I decided to do it too today!

Nothing much with my make up. Just eyeliner, mascara, lipstick, blusher and earing and necklace. Oh and I painted one finger just for a picture later. hahaha lol.

(and yes I am on my bed taking all these unglam pictures on this boringzoringsnoring day)

So girls who take picture with excessive makeup... I don't really classify it as excessive makeup actually.. but... Ya..cant find another word to describe their horrendous amount of eyeliner they use.

THE SUPERMODEL POSE.

Fierce and sexy rightttttt.

The one with the no expression on the face but still look sexy.

Psh, This picture looks more like a " *Snap* OI WHY YOU TAKE MY PICTURE I LOOKING DAMN BLUR " kind of picture but... ya. Idk this lookz LOL. Interesting photo I took hahahahah

YES I KNOW MY HANDS ARE FAT AND SMALL .

Closing eyes.

Omg, I used to LOVE this pose when I was younger,

I classify this under the make up zone is because normally people who do this are people who use mascara or have extremely long eyelashes.

Or they pretend that they want to sleep. lol

I don't put mascara when I was younger and i don't pretend that I wanna sleep and not because I wanna show off my long eyelashes or whatevs. But YA. This is one of my favourite poses

As I said again~ I used to act like those "emokid97" kinda girl you know xxFallenAngelBaby97 Kinda thing.. ( JUST KIDDING) So.. YA. HEHEH.
Oh and this could be looking down but. I just believed this picture looks so cool that I should save the best for last. ( not really last but ok nevermind)

Anyway I love this picture hahaha thatz k00l.

LOL

phailure.

I know of someone who always does these kinda pictures. Makes me wanna laugh just thinking about it.

This looks like your insane, girl!!!!

Wtf. I look like some mental asylum chick. HAHAHA

but ya. Lol. Shouldnt be under Make up category but ya lololololol I just didnt want to spoil the surprise of the makeup thing ! ^_^ cuz a lot of people don't really see me camwhoring w makeup. Although there are some pictures that gave it away but .. Okay forget it ignore me i'm talking to myself.

Act sexy.

Bend down lowlow, open leg widewide, hands are wide apart.

1 word.

LOL.
or maybe 3.
NEVERMIND

Some pictures that girls take like this is not even sexy.

Actually coming to think of it, i look quite hot in this picture ^_^ seeing my small arms. HAHAHAHAH.

Ok forget it i'm being lame again

HiongZharBoh pointing middle finger!

So i painted my middle finger just so I can post this online but it failed cuz i dont think you all can see it lol.

So ya

I think this pose very unglam if you're like a p5 xmm cuz ya...

You get it~

kisskiss/Fishface/duck face.

I ALWAYS DO THIS FACE

AHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
look at the amount of dry skin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God, this is embarrassing.

I know I damn lame heehehhehe.

the omfg squeeze myself into a pictureframe photo.
doesn't really look like it but............. anyway....................................................
i have fat thighs in this picture. HAHAHAHHAAHAH
I like my face though.

Forget it.

So anyway all these pictures were taken using my mac...
which means its photobooth..
which means...................................

WHATS PHOTOBOOTH WITHOUT USING THE EFFECTS?! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA.

( I look hot damnit. ^_^ )

HEHEHEHE.

Anyway, If you ask me what kind of photos do I hate the most

I'd answer " photo editing"

Not those for the effects kind, But those who write words.

Not words la. I do write words on my photos.

But specific ones like.

1. (yourname) Photography

Unless you're a real photographer, wah this is major turn off when I see it from a 13 year old girl's photo. Funny ah. Use phone camera and say its photography hahahahah.

2. "(date of anniversary) ' you lied to meee/ i hate youuu/ forget our loveeee' "

-.- . nuff said. Its ok if is those

" 300211, i love you" kind. But when you say like you want to forget them or hate them, why bother posting pictures of it online and all? Let him see also make him feel so lousy.. Like he really very bad like that!

Anyway "lol" at that date. I just didnt want to offend any couple's anniversary date. HAHAHHA.

3. Song lyrics

Lol. Its okay if its those like phrase but seriously? When you put the whole chorus?

-.-

wtf.

So annoying!

Anyway this song is by first lady - never be replaced.

I used to love that song... HAHAHHA.

And finally..

4. Writing a whole message dedicated to your boyfriend( i don't wanna put gf cuz i dont think guys do this? Lol... i hope they dont... That'd be just... HAHAHA)

Ya. This is annoying when it comes out as a whole chunk lol.

Unless its those birthday dedications and all these la

Some words that you all write doesnt even make sense wtf.

You all can slowly read what I wrote on that picture.

PURELY ME WHO WROTE IT ONLY KEKE.

DIDNT ASK ANYBODY'S HELP.

You know I can write such great things like this because you know I'm desperate thats why these words come so naturally HAHAHA

Ok forget it i'm lame.

IM FINALLY DONE WITH THIS BLOODY POST OMG YOU KNOW I TOOK LIKE 1 AND A HALF HOURS TO COMPLETE THIS.

See, I go all the way for all you non-existent readers :) I'm so sweet

BYE.

Ps. no offense to those who take photos like that lol