Worst ever.

Shouldn't have said, shouldn't have asked.
I did.

Worst ever.

I know crying isn't going to help salvage the problem, but I guess I really do have to let out some feelings some time,
don't fucking know why but I really have the feeling that I should just knife my hands right now. A pain sensation, of some sort. Just to fucking remind myself that I'm still alive and I can still hurt people.

Just like how I'm about to hurt myself.

I don't want to on my phone. Really don't want to and can't bring myself to.
Switching on my phone, gives me an opportunity to talk to others and hurt them.

Don't fucking deserve.
You don't deserve.

I am the worst.
ever.
& most horrible ever.

Worthless. Goodbye.