12:54

It's 12:54 in the morning now.
All I hear is loud typing, and sleepy little snores from my sister beside me.
I'm feeling a little stressed and vexed and I really need to get whatever is in me out now.
What else can I wish for? I should be the happiest little contented girl right now. Everything is perfect for me. But why this heaviness in me? The feeling in me is pretty strong and I can't comprehend what is exactly wrong. All I know is I don't want to feel this.
Reflections after 12 never used to be this way. Reflections after 12 was usually because I know and I am aware of what's going on in me.
These days, it hasn't always been that way, sadly.

I'm probably too happy and too caught up in being happy that I know something is going to happen. Good things don't always happen consistently. There will always be an end to things. I hope this perfection will last a whole lot longer. I have yet to experience a happy life full of meaning. I'm still trying to get a hang of this.
Ugh, goodbye. It's 1 now. I should probably sleep.