Motivation.

A little motivation to blog. Just to rant out whatever that's on my mind. Recently, I've been feeling a little lousy. Not sure why, maybe I know, but not intending to open up to anyone. I've realised that the only thing I can depend on is independence. Also, myself. No one's going to be there with you through it all and through out all.
I am an exception. I am going to be with me, through it all.
Still, of course, knowing the worth of the people around me.

 Probably this is going to be the hardest thing to say, but I think I've made up my mind about life. What I'm doing and what I intend to do. The whole day, I've been sitting and lying and trying many different positions on my bed. It was quiet before half past seven. But I realised that through today, self reflections really do you good. Going back to my old self. No longer going to be the vulnerable little gullible innocent young girl. Never going to open up and share everything with people any more. No matter how desperate I am, probably going to keep a few people around because I know I have to. But nope, going back to independent state.

 Hey dad look at me 
Think back and talk to me 
Did I grow up according to plan? 
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do? 
'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along 
And now I try hard to make it 
I just want to make you proud 
I'm never gonna be good enough for you 
I can't pretend that I'm alright 
And you can't change me 


'Cuz we lost it all 
Nothing lasts forever 
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect 
Now it's just too late and 
We can't go back 
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect 


 I try not to think 
About the pain I feel inside 
Did you know you used to be my hero? 
All the days you spend with me 
Now seems so far away 
And it feels like you don't care anymore 
And now I try hard to make it 
I just want to make you proud 
I'm never gonna be good enough for you 
I can't stand another fight 
And nothing's alright

Something happened. Goodbye.