How could I have been so ignorant? I let my guard down too fucking easily. God, if only I had trusted my senses a little earlier. If only I had not stop telling myself that I was just "thinking too much" or "over-reacting". What the fuck is wrong with me. What the fuck happened to the cautious girl I used to be. What the fuck. What the fuck. What the fuck. Someone please kill me now for I am so fucking disappointed in me. my life. whatever. I can't believe I trusted anyone this fucking easily. I can't fucking believe I thought that everything is different. I never should have, and should never have done this. Fuck my life. Fuck this world. Fuck everything about it. Someone kill me right now for whatever is in me right now is so overwhelming and I can't comprehend this feeling. I don't know if disappointment is taking over me, or if it's anger and hatred. I feel like a complete fucking fool to have ever done this. Fuck this, fuck the world, fuck everything.
Today is fucking Good Friday and I told myself to control my anger for this is Holy week. This is not bloody working. I am fucking angered. I'm a fucking ignorant fool who deserves this. Fuck myself.
Marks my words. Never. Ever. Am. I. Gonna. Ever. Fucking. Trust. Anyone. Ever. Again.
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