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Wasn't this all I've ever wanted? Haven't I always wanted this? Why is it that when it finally happened, I get so upset and feel so hurt? It's finally what I think it is and know it is. I'm finally getting what I want. But yet again... This strange feeling is rousing up in me.... I feel a sense of guilt. I feel like a burden. I feel like it was because of my self conceitedness that made you like this. Is it my fault? I feel horrible :(

Once again, hello. x. I've been blogging a lot these days, haven't I. Too many things to rant about, I guess. Today I felt a sense of love and yet a sense of sadness. My drama club people got me 15 hairbands for my birthday. I am so touched oh me god :( big thanks to Samuel, sarah, junnita, sorfina, Linette and more that I can't actually remember. And biggest and warmest hugs and loves and gratitude to my two Indians <3 : raiyini and Mounisni <3 I love them so much. God knows what I'd do without them. I cried in the canteen too because I just felt like I have not cherished them enough. Now that they're leaving... Love my drama club members max hurhur.

Au revoir, til we meet again.