1st post of 2012

Twentytwelve. It's been so long since I last posted. 23rd december, god. 23.. Haaaa.

Anyway, things have been really going smoothly and yet rough for me the past few days. I cannot comprehend the anger I feel towards myself and everything. Simply put, things haven't been going my way. Within 10 minutes, 9.08 - 9.15 , which isn't even 10 minutes yet, I have 4 things that piss me off. I don't want to sound like the usual 10 year old kids whining about their problems, but really, things are just pissing me off so badly. I have no one to turn to for my maid is back in Phil. I can't talk to anyone. And yes, my maid is really a great listener.

Back to the point, I don't want to talk about my problems here on blogger. Though, I have the urge to. I can just spam profanities, vulgarities, curses, swears and everything bad out here but it still wouldn't solve my problem right? Then why am I blogging when I know it does no help to my problems I'm going through now?

Basically, the only reason why I'm blogging now is because I am just feeling distress that there's no one to talk to, hence Blogger. Which is useless, for it does no help to my problems, as I've said. I shall stop repeating myself, ha.

I am clueless, lost, and directionless. I don't know where to go. I am lost, I am stuck here at this same point. I am just lost for words, speechless, in fact.

Apologies for only blogging to vent my anger for the past few days. I have no motivation to blog anymore. Since, ( I say again, ) I've realized that blogging does no help to my problems. It can't share joy, pain or anything with me. So why do I blog? Simply, no one else can. But I really have to let it all out once in awhile.

I have just said it again, 3 ? 4? times. Damn, and it's not like I'm unaware of myself repeating. It's just that.. Anyway, nevermind.

Happy belated new years, this is my first post of 2012 and I'm blogging and venting out my anger. Righhhhttt. What a way to kill the mood of 2012.

Thanks for reading, my non existent readers.