bombarded.

Not feeling well, a chain of events happening all in one night and I really need a breather. I just need to get it clear with all of you reading this, or not.

• I don't really care on whats your impression of me. If I'm a flirt, so be it. If I'm irritating, so be it. Its' your impression and I can't really give a hell on what's running through your mind. & Yes, this post might get a lot of haters & also a lot of comments saying I'm attention seeking, but, SO? Like I give a fuck.

Anyway, fuck my contradictoriness( initially, I type contradictiveness, but I checked for auto correct and I found out this is the correct term, f yeah. 1point for Magdelyn.). If I didn't care about such stuffs, why did I even bother to post this. Yeah, I admit, it hurts a little to know on your HONEST opinion on me, but.. Well... At least I know whats really running through your minds. I don't really get that a lot when I'm surrounded by a couple of gossipers and people who talk behind my back. Well.. I do that too, but, isn't that human nature?

Damn, I really need to get this all out. I really need a breather. I finally know whats the meaning of "hearts feeling heavy". Because yeah, my hearts' feeling really painful. Chest area, I'm fine if you're asking... or not. The last time I felt this way was when I took a waffle. Chest area hurts, allergy reaction. Anyway, off topic.

I really need to catch hold of time. I'm in the midst of Mid years and yet I can still be happily wasting time on my computer, blogging and all, but I really just need to get this all out, I should consider a diary. That way, I won't get any other distractions on the computer... But sadly, I feel inferior whenever I see my diary written with my atrocious handwriting. Anyway, off topic again. But.. seriously, I should consider one, and maybe consider improving my handwriting.

Just when I thought life was picking up, it came back crashing down. I thought, life was perfect. I had the right friends with me, I had the right attitude( and the motivations to study...) and etc. Life has to play me out, like I'm a fucking joke or something. (Damn.. why am I starting to blog out vulgarities again.. Makes me sound like a kid trying to look cool by having so much vulgarities on my blog posts. one word - l-o-l.[ or is that 3 ... ANYWAY..] ) Just a few days ago, I was so caught up, thinking on how I should handle stuffs, thinking like what should I do and all.. But now, life made a decision for me. But this decision, fucking joke.

I never expected such to be so hurting.. I just wanted to leave and forget about everything, but why did it play such a joke on me. I feel so foolish now, like a fool.