crushed.

when you try your best but you don't succeed... when you get what you want but not what you need....... could it be worst?


Recently, I went through a really hard time that I, myself, would've never thought I would go through such thing. It has always been my dream to act. I want to pursue in acting(of course there's psychology but that's a whole different issue) but recently.. syf.... it pains my heart everytime I have to think of it. I never used to have a problem with it but I guess... Now.... I guess I just have to remind myself not to be blinded by my ego...

This has affected me so much... Everytime I think of it, it kills me a little bit more. I am so hurt right now I don't even know if I have the moral courage to continue this blogpost.

I have been assured by so many people that I have the talent and the skill.. but how can I believe them when the truth is right before my eyes... I can't act. I want to act. I have been assured by certificates and commendations so many a time. But something as big as my last chance to perform....

I'm going to cry.

To you, out there reading this: You might think you're safe and all and you are better than everyone else... You're not. You can be overtaken someday. And even if you never are to be overtaken, don't be complacent. Because I have been there and I have done that....

What I thought I had... was never really mine.