Hurt, metaphorically incorrect 3.

I never should have accepted the invitation of the party. Three's a crowd and maybe I was the three.
Then again, think back and realise that if it wasn't for me, it wouldn't have.

it never should have, anyway.

To go for it Or to continue staying at this position.
Hurt us all or to hurt me, and myself?

Would i even hurt you?

Do i even matter.

I don't want to end up awkwardly removing my clothes all the time, I don't want to end up being the one pouring water, I don't want to end up breaking glasses.

Engulfed with sorrow, fear. Why do i do that. Why.

长痛不如短痛? Bullshit. 为你而痛，值得吗? Give me a reasonable reason, is it all worth it? Is the hurt i feel all worth it? I'd shed blood even, if it's worth it. But then again, I'm not like what I used to be. I don't know if it's worth fighting for, even.

He love us.

He is jealous for me 
Love's like a hurricane, I am a tree 
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy 
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory 
and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me. 
Oh, how He loves us so 
Oh, how He loves us 
How He loves us so. 

Yeah, He loves us 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He loves. 

So we are His portion and He is our prize, 
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes 
If grace is an ocean we're all sinking 
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest 
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way 

That he loves us, 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He loves 

He loves us, 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He loves 

E.

It is going to be a year. A year since I last wrote a particular entry on a diary. A year since my heart was a captive of someone else's prison. A little toy that you could play with, pull the strings and I would do it. Anything, anything. I'd do anything for this one special person.
I had never thought this special person could ever be anything more than friends. It's more than I can ask for, I don't even know if I am deserving and/or worthy of him. He makes me smile like no other, and no other can be him.
What would've I became without this one special someone? If I hadn't met this one special someone on skype. If I hadn't talked to this one special someone. If I hadn't texted this one special someone. If I hadn't known this one special someone?

I would be a lot different.

No other boy is willing to travel over-an-hour distance, late at night just to send you home.
No other boy is willing to leave all his games and friends just to meet you.
No other boy is willing to give in in almost every fight.
No other boy is willing to kneel down just for your forgiveness.
No other boy is willing to stop trying to get back your forgiveness.
No other boy is willing to tolerate your lame, annoying jokes.
No other boy is willing to continue being lame in addition to your lame jokes.
No other boy is willing to accept your past so openly.
No other boy is willing to understand situations.
No other boy is willing to throw his pride away.
No other boy is willing to try all ways just to cheer you up.
No other boy is willing to wake up earlier just to meet you.
No other boy is willing to send you home almost everyday when you stay faraway.
No other boy is willing to do almost anything for you.
No other boy is willing to satisfy every food craving for you and with you.
No other boy is willing to shed tears with you.
No other boy is willing to accept all the times you overreact.
No other boy is willing to readily say sorry all the time.
No other boy is willing to love you more than anyone else.
No other boy is willing to try to be the perfect guy.

No other boy is willing to, but ekjl will.

ljkeevoli

Poverty.

Poverty is the pronounced deprivation of well being. It is the inability to satisfy one's basic needs because one lacks income to buy services or from lack of access to services. Absolute poverty or destitution refers to the state of severe deprivation of basic human needs, which commonly includes food, water, sanitation, clothing, shelter, health care, education and information.  - WIKIPEDIA 

POVERTY. Read how even Wikipedia recognizes the fact that poverty refers to state of severe deprivation of basic human needs.
If you carry on reading, you will see that Wikipedia considers basic human needs as food, water, sanitation, clothing, shelter, health care, education and information.
Don't mean to become yet another politically incorrect blogger, who blogs about sensitive issues about the government and it's genius ideas and then get raged by netizens at but correct me if I'm wrong...

GIVING OUT PHONES TO PEOPLE UNDER THE POVERTY LINE?

FOR CHRIST'S SAKE. Your people out there in India are dying due to malnutrition, starvation, thirst, not having a proper roof over their head/ not even having a roof over their head, not having proper sanitation in their area, not enough warmth, not enough clothing, not having proper health care services, and majority of them suffering because of no proper education. Yet what do you do to help this situation? You provide phones, and what do phones do in situations like this?

Do you expect your people to call Pizza hut? Do you expect your people to call for someone to fix their houses? What do you expect your people to do with this new phone you give them? Call who and what for? Oh so you think you're a great government by doing this?

Oh, and to top it all off, to show the world how great you guys are, you give all of them 250 minutes free. What do people do with this 250 minutes? Your people are dying, they can't even afford food, they ration water almost everyday and you guys, being little geniuses you guys are, you guys give phones. Oh for God's sake, what makes you think your people have enough to pay for a phone bill? Or even have enough money to pay for the electricity used to charge the phone even?

Think about it further, and do not stop at the fact that it will show how magnanimous you guys are, and how much you guys can make a difference so that the people will entrust you and vote for you for the 2014 elections.

Help them solve their problems on water, food, shelter, clothings. NOT add on to their problems.

A good leader whom I will entrust my votes is someone who does something to help the situation, and not worsen it.

"32.7% of the total Indian people falls below the international poverty line of US$1.25 per day while 68.7% live on less than US$ 2 per day."

So 32.7% gets a free phone? And for what apparent reason do you do it for?

Click to read about this news

"They are worried it may been seen as a waste of resources that could be better spent resolving power shortage problem or funding food security measures."

 YOU DON'T SAY

salvation.

Comparing myself from a year back with now, there is a vast difference between us. So very vast. The faithfulness and the great adoration for the Lord has definitely been compromised with all my different little commitments I have made over the past year. So much differences in between. When I created this blog, there was ever only one little thing in my mind. To spread about the gospel of God, or rather just to blog in a more Christian way. A forgiving, humble way. So vast, the difference between what I wanted to become, and what I have became. I used to love the Lord that much that I am willing to lay down my life for the Lord. For everything I do, is to proclaim the awesomeness and the glory of God.

What have I become? And why have I not noticed this previously? Thank God I even noticed the difference in me.

Two years back around this time, probably about mid aug to mid sept, I was depressed to the extent that I wanted to kill myself, I wanted to commit suicide. I cut myself so deep that time, I bled. No one knew. I was just so depressed. Thank God for God and his little angels whom talked to me. To have received a message about Christ loving us. And how our body is the temple of God, am I only harming myself? Aren't I harming the little emotions of my surroundings? What about the Lord? If my body belongs to Christ, wouldn't I be harming Christ? Evading and avoiding is not the right option. It is the selfish option. Whomever said that you should steer clear of trouble, never meant that you should avoid it in such a way. But I never knew. Thank God, the awesome Lord made in clear to me that night.

I devoted myself to the Lord that much at that point of time, but what exactly happened to me during the course of the past year? What has happened?

Who am I forming and shaping into? What transformation has been in me?

I always tell myself that I want to re-devote myself in to Christ. Nothing has happened. No difference in me. Did I really re-devote myself in to Christ or has that all been little empty promises to myself just to comfort myself?

You are my strength when I am weak, You are the treasure that I seek, You are my all in all.

Jesus, Lamb of God, worthy is your name. Help me re-devote and come back to you, Yahweh. You are worthy of all praises. Thank you for all that you have done for me, and done in me. I have countless blessings and I am not in any difficulty that I, myself can't handle, because of you. Because of all the blessings that you have given me. Lord, Jesus Christ. Thank you for the abundant blessings. For without you, I would be nothing but a worthless sinner, whom cannot do anything, whom cannot function. Thank you Lord. I pray that you will help me go back to you. Serving your ministry, and serving you faithfully. Thank you Lord. Amen.

MAGDELYN IZ HAPPY GIRL1997

SCHOOL IS ONLY HALF DAY TOMORROW.

YOU ONLY HAVE A CONCERT TOMORROW.

SCHOOL ENDS AT 1130 TOMORROW.

I HAVE 4 DAYS OF HOLIDAYS AFTER THAT.

I AM HAPPY.