Sigh.

Why is it that when we like someone so much, all their flaws and lies becomes non-existent to us? We only remember their good. I am naive, don't hurt me. I do like you a lot, and I just can't find the reason why. I'm afraid you'll hurt me. I'm afraid I'll hurt you. I'm afraid I'll get hurt. I'm afraid you'll get hurt. Most importantly... I am afraid it'll hurt this thing between us. I am so vulnerable and naive. I don't want to like you, but I'm afraid that once I stop, she'll have you... Then I've wasted my time. I don't want to lose you. I really can't imagine how it'll feel when I actually lose you.

Limitations.

Hello, currently working on a project and I'm so bored so I started camwhoring. HAHAHHAHAHEHEEHEHEHHOHOHOOHO. ok so hi thats me like 30mins ago. OK LET ME START DOING MY WORK. I'm watching bian yuan fu zi now 2. HHEHEHE. OKOK BYEBYE!

iBlogger!

OH HELLO, I'm using iBlogger to blog this. Seems like a pretty cool app. I'm just trying :). These days I've been in a wild hunt for good iPhone apps because it is really defeating my app store's purpose of being there when I'm not even downloading any games or apps. I'm really searching for some good social networking or game apps on my phone but none seems to appeal to me.

There comes a time in every iPhone users iPhone life that they'll realize that the " iPhone " is just yet another phone, and the apps, which is claimed to be " legendary " is just another function on the phone. Maybe it's just that the " iPhone " has more games, rather than some old nokia phone. That's the iPhone for you guys. The phone of games.

But I still love my phone <3 Contradicting much?!

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

我还记得,我们的约定. 一辈子,幸福的约定.

Who are you to talk about commitment? What about our promises. The fifteen years. To think, back then, we were even thinking that we'll last forever. Remember 1217? When we said we'll be together forever? When we were so sure of lasting forever? When we even talked about marriage?
她一定很爱你,也把我比下去, 分手也只用了一分钟而已. 她一定很爱你, 比我会讨好你. 不会像我这样孩子气, 为难着你.

I was childish, I was a fool. I can't let go. 1213. You talk about commitment to her, you love her. I'm sure she must be great. I'm happy you found your happiness. She'll bring you more happiness than any of the other girls you've ever been with. Love her, and good luck with her.

Fifteen years, can be with her. If we were still together, it would been thirteen years by now. Two years passed in a blink of an eye, and I really miss you.

Blogging

There comes a time in every blogger's life where they'll realize that blogging is a hassle, and that's a blogger's mid life blogging crisis.
It's a Saturday, I'm bored. There's nothing to do. Sigh. I wanna change my blogskin. :( .
I'll blog soon enough, starting to get bored. Kbye.

Hiatus? on/off?

Apologies for a dead blog and here's a blogpost to "revive" it, just in case if it is still hanging on the life support.

Life.. A roller coaster.
Honestly, I don't know whats going on in my life now. Sometimes, its good. sometimes, its really bad. The good doesnt last long, neither does the bad. Neutral? Not at all. Its good bad good bad good bad. You don't even have the transition for a neutral.

I really need someone to make me have faith again. Not in God, not in myself, not in anyone. But to have faith in faith. Faith, funny thing how when i typed that, I actually gave a little laugh. It doesn't even mean anything to me now. Faith, hope? What kind of hope do I have? I don't even have time to hope for things. Currently blogging because I can't take it anymore. Slogging my ass off every single day and the least I can have is someone to help..? Who am I kidding, no one can help. Piles and piles and piles of work every single day yet.. Sigh, I'm alone, cold doing this work by myself.

Recently, I've been really nostalgic. Reminiscing the past and all. A part of me hasn't given up on you. Yet the other part tells me to move on. But I can't. Moving on is hard.

To all of you out there.. I know, stop telling me to move on. I want to. And I'm trying my best to. But somehow, I just cant let go. So what about this move on thing. I'm trying my best. I know the only obstacle between me and fully letting go is just me. I know it's not that I can't let it go. It's just myself who doesn't want to. Oh who am i to kid, I'm just contradicting myself. I'm actually stressing myself on something that doesn't even require me to be stress about. " Whether I can't let go or I don't want to." It's still the same meaning, it still means that I still do like you.

Well. I do have to let go anyway. It's just a matter of time. Whether I do it sooner or later. He has already moved on. What for stay in this? What for wait for a guy who wouldn't come back to you? False hope, empty promises. I should move on.. Life's just cruel. Always plays a joke on you. I'm just another fool in the game of life.

Forget it. How did life turn to love all of a sudden?

School. A big sigh. DISASTROUS.

Found out that I'm claustrophobic. Actually I knew, but.. I didn't know it came back. Couldn't breathe just now. Feeling restless. Air ventilation was bad, door was locked, windows were all tightly shut. Oh well. Can't be helped anyway.

Recently angry over a lot of things. Too tired to even care.

Well, I'll blog tomorrow or something, got a load off my chest. But i've got more to rant. Okbyeeeeeee.