Starting to think.

I've been thinking for awhile. For this past whole month. I'm starting to think what I could have done to salvage this. I started to list them all down.. Then i realized, woah. I can't stop. I could've done so many things. But what did I chose to do? Nothing.

Then I stopped to realize, hey. It could've been worst. Although what I went through was already a living hell, but hey, on the brighter side, there are many advantages after what had happened.

It took me a whole year to realize I have been wasting a whole year. So much for the irony huh? I wouldn't have suffered this much of a blow if he could've done something. Yes, I'm starting to blame others. It is because this is my life and I shouldn't blame myself for anything.

But then again, I realize I was completely lost for a whole year. No direction.. No guidance.. I still do take time out to think about every single little thing that has happened. Not to mention that I found out that without me, his life would still be a normal ongoing cycle. Nothing big right? Its' just as if someone not important at all just walked into his life and just went out after a short 2months. But he has learnt to let go.

Newsflash. I'll never let go of this.