New year, New start.

A new year is coming in less than 12 hours. I don't know if I should be feeling ecstatic or not. Everyone seems so hyped up, but really, how different would next year be? Besides all of us growing old, theres' nothing much of a change. 2010 is gone, 2011 is here. Nothing much right? 2010 was hell. But on the brighter sight, 2009 was worst than hell :) . At least last year was better. Only gonna speak of the months I should speak of.

January '10 -

New school, New year. Excited? Not really. Same old same old. New rumors, New friends, New enemies. Whatever.

February'10 -

18th.

April'10-

Felt loved on my birthday (:

May'10-

I'm so lucky. I made the worst decision but yet the best decision after it. Just found something out yesterday which sends chills down my spine.

August'10 -

Piercing on the 6th. Went strong, Came out stronger.

November'10 - December'10

Holidays. Nothing much, really. Holidays officially started without school and all on the 22nd . No, not 22nd November, 22nd December. Like wth. Holidays was fun. Yet, nothing much.. Since I'm gonna be so packed during 2011.

New things I did on 2010.

- Started really thinking about future even though I'm super young.

- Started to think on my own, make my own decisions.

- Started to be more independent.

- Started to realize I should never abandon friends, always cherish them.

- Started to pierce.

Resolutions for 2011:

- GROW THIN . KTHXBAI.

If I can think of some during the day today, then I'll post. thxbai.

Starting to think.

I've been thinking for awhile. For this past whole month. I'm starting to think what I could have done to salvage this. I started to list them all down.. Then i realized, woah. I can't stop. I could've done so many things. But what did I chose to do? Nothing.

Then I stopped to realize, hey. It could've been worst. Although what I went through was already a living hell, but hey, on the brighter side, there are many advantages after what had happened.

It took me a whole year to realize I have been wasting a whole year. So much for the irony huh? I wouldn't have suffered this much of a blow if he could've done something. Yes, I'm starting to blame others. It is because this is my life and I shouldn't blame myself for anything.

But then again, I realize I was completely lost for a whole year. No direction.. No guidance.. I still do take time out to think about every single little thing that has happened. Not to mention that I found out that without me, his life would still be a normal ongoing cycle. Nothing big right? Its' just as if someone not important at all just walked into his life and just went out after a short 2months. But he has learnt to let go.

Newsflash. I'll never let go of this.