M4k3Up.

You, little girl, with that many insecurities.
You're just a little girl who covers up all your insecurities with powder,
You conceal the flaws on your face with the concealer.

You choose to change to become two shades lighter because you're afraid of how society will base you.
You let your bronzer allow you to be judged as a whole other person.

Your vision is still clear, but you choose to cover it with the lenses that differs your opinion of the colours of this world.
The things you've seen in this world, covered with your eyeliner.
Bad enough that you cover it with your coloured lenses, you choose to put mascara to blur out your wise knowledge.
Your emotions, you cover them with blusher.
The words you speak, you tend to be careful. You cover them with lipstick.
You want to let the world know about your soul, but yet you cover them with your eyeshadow.

& when you go home, you wash them off with your facial cleanser. You become you at home, but will the world ever see it? And will the world ever appreciate you for being natural?

I'm afraid not.

Fret not.

I wish that there'd be a day where I can say that I totally relate to this.

Dilemma

When you don't know what's green and what's red,

When you don't know where to go,

When you don't know if you should,

When you don't know who's right,

When you don't know who to believe,

When you don't know who's advice to heed,

When you don't know anything,

When you don't know everything,

Look to God.

Because God provides answers,

God will be there.

No one will.

Withdrawn. Tired. Sick. 

Because of everything. 

That is why I once told you, I do not want to end up being too dependent on you. This is why I didn't want to rely on you too much. This is why I didn't want to grow too attached to you.

Because this is what happens.

" It wouldn't be considered a mistake if you did it more than once, it's a choice. "

Beat.

Music and me.

Age is catching up,
Don't know what to do with life any more.
Listening to slow beats,
Fast beats, no more.

A random thought.

Nothing hurts more than seeing someone you love a lot get hurt by someone undeserving and unworthy of their love. What can ever hurt more than seeing them love someone whom is so unworthy of them?

I once thought that everything was a fairytale and it was smooth sailing. You deserved her and she deserved you. But i was wrong, real wrong. You deserve someone whom will definitely be there for you all the time, not someone like her.

Not someone like her....

Not someone who stops talking to you as and when she feels like
Not someone who gets the swings every single day.
Not someone who wont ever listen to you and breaks all promises made.
Not someone who is like that.

Then again,
i realise,
Who am i to say about all these?

Little little vague thoughts.
Beat.

Sundays.

Sunday Christians.


Whilst everyone's praying, do you think it's right for you to be distracted? Saying you love God and he is your one and only true saviour. Does that really make you a Christian?"


"You show up on Sunday to cover your back
You drop to your knees, as you genuflect
I don't believe your heart is really in it
It's only insurance to you, you self-righteous hypocrite

Because you believe that just by praising God everywhere, it would make you a real believer? Do you think that would bring you to heaven?


You live as a Christian only one day in seven
You believe that's enough to get you to heaven
Yeah, you think that you've got it made
Because you dropped an extra dollar in the offering tray


 You think God is forgiving and he understands, but God only needs just that little time in your life, just to be there for him, when he has been there for you all these time. And what do you do in return? A half-hearted reply to God? Because you believe there are things more important than God.


I see you standing there with a tired look
Lip-syncing hymns, having never cracked the holy book
I don't mean to test your faith or cause you distress
You should send your prayers to the right address 


Shouldn't you be praying directly to God
Instead of petitioning saints or His mom
I believe one should go straight to the top
I'm sure He will pass all your requests on


Because we live in an open society
It seems there is one God for you and another for me
Praying to angels, saints and other deities is false idolatry
There is only one light that any of us will ever see


 You blame God in all the bad that happens in your life, and what about all the good things? Credited to yourself?


I don't see visions in the bark of a tree
Mildew stains turning into Mother Mary
You say I don't see because I don't believe
I say you see because you are lost and need to see


Organized religion was created to control
Only a political business, not here to save your soul
I believe one should follow the goodness in the heart
God has a plan for all and we will all play our parts


Many men have murdered claiming it was God's will
But wasn't it God that gave the law, "Thou shalt not kill"
Those who do the slaughter sacrificed their honor for pride
This is the reason that, in His name, so many millions have died

You think Going to Heaven is your one golden ticket in life, you believe in the ten commandments but you never really carry them out anyway.


Buddhists, Muslims, Hindus and the Christ killing Jews
Are damned because they don't believe the same as you do
You say, on heaven's gate there is a sign
It reads "For Christians Only"; all others go to hell, so get in line


The first shall be last, the last shall be first
You can torture and murder every being on the face of the earth
On your death bed, with your last breath, you repent
Through the pearly gates you are immediately sent


While the person who lives his life just like he should
Does nobody any harm and all of his works are good
He will suffer and burn in hell for all eternity
All because he does not believe in Christianity


Nature is full of God and his complexities
The rain falls on the good, the evil, you and me 
The golden rule is the only way to be
I will treat you the way I want you to treat me


Follow that one rule and no commandments would ever be broken
There would be peace on earth; no lies would ever be spoken
But this is a dream that will never ever be
For we are only humans and our hearts overflow with lust and greed

Because we believe God will always be there for us, even if we turn a blind eye on him. For God is an ever forgiving God and he will pardon every sin just because he died on the cross for us. It means we can all be washed off of our sins. Which means we can continue sinning without caring two hoots that it may hurt God.


We all do what we must do each day to get us through
Every morning I say, today, I will try to follow that golden rule
Well, that is my philosophy and my point of view
And in the end, we will all be revealed the truth"

Judgement day comes, and guess what happens.




Italic was the poem of Steve Giacomini, entitled "Sermon".
Bold for things to consider about.
Underline for in depth considerations.

Literature. *sigh.

t.

You know, its really hard to pretend like everythings right when its not. This pretentious game we are in, its really hard to get through this.. Im just feeling so horrible now. Is this what im supposed to get?....

All about the mindset.

Little children, with little immature childish thoughts. Little kids, with a mind that has not matured. Little, little. Pity.

Parachute.

I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together
Forever and always
Stay there forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether rich or for poor or for better
We'll still love each other, forever and always
I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether happy or sad or whatever
We'll still love each other, forever and always
Forever and always, forever and always

Metaphorically incorrect 2

I need to keep to commitments about blogging. Day one and I'm out. Hahahahhaa, what.

It's been quite awhile and I really need to get things off my chest. I'd really love to type them all out. But people watch, people read...
People judge.

How do I conquer all these conflicting emotions? M/i.

Cow likes monkey.
Monkey is unsure.
Rat likes monkey.
Monkey is unsure.
Cow does not like Rat.
Monkey likes Rat.
Rat does not like Cow.
Monkey likes Rat.

What a beautiful poem. I actually wanted to continue... But I just couldn't. As I've said before, people watch, people read and people judge.
So many conflicting emotions. Inflicting pains of a yes and no. Scarry yes and nos. Scary yes and nos.

I am done with photoadayjuly. Simply because I got lazy.

as usual.

I'm tired. I'm done with this week.

Either ways,
Thank God it's Friday.
Thank God I can even make it through the week.
Thank God I can even reach Friday.
Thank God it's Friday.

Goodbye.

Menstruation.

I hate menstruation.
I hate menstruating.
I hate menses.
I hate menstruation cramps.
I hate having to change pads.
I hate not having enough pads.
I hate being bloody.
I hate hormonal imbalance.

PERIOD.
^ that was so fucking ironic i can't even explain the awkwardness when I typed period.

DAY 1.

HELLO. IT'S THE FIRST OF JULY.
 I'm gonna start on a photo blog a day!........... I hope I carry this out properly.
The last time I did it, I stopped at day 8 because.. I just stopped lah and it's pretty funny hahahahhaha.
ANYWAY.

 DAY 1 - Self portrait

I'm using my brother's macbook now so I really don't have much photos of myself here... Or rather, I don't have any photo of myself.
.
.
.
Because I don't like to camwhore.

JUST KIDDING.

Every girl likes to camwhore. But it's super troublesome because you have to like take ten thousand photos of yourself before you find a decent shot.
The three photos of me on top were taken after like 16 photos.... and I just took the 3 most acceptable ones........

I find myself really awkward in front of the camera because...
I just don't like it la. Smiling for 3seconds before the photo is actually taken...... That's for photobooth.
And with my really super laggy phone... 5seconds if you're lucky.

Omg. and it's funny how my phone has about 3000 photos and like I only have less than 100 photos of myself camwhoring in the phone. ahhahahaa. Anyway.

Yah. Self portrait.

It's supposedly supposed to be only 1 picture but I couldn't decide because like first picture, i rly like my hair but i think my smile is awkward.. Second picture, same case I really like my hair but the smile looks like that of a pedophile and my third picture is. hahhahaha i like my phone..........

Okay anyway goodbye! done with day oneeeeee. I think I should post a photo on my instagram too. #photoadayjuly