Rekindling love, keeping faith.

God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt.
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true that God gave me you.

Sigh. I need to start focusing my life onto the right objectives.'cuz Magdelyn, life is not gonna be all about friendships, relationships and whatever nots. Life is about your studies, future and Jesus.

Load of crap. Except the part about Jesus.

I need to go back to Jesus. Where I can proudly proclaim that he is my one true love, my one true friend. I need someone to be there for me to get me back on my feet to proudly say that he is mine and I am his. I am losing faith, losing hope, losing guidance. To hell with all these.

Repetitive things I blog about, how irksome it is to read my blog. Love, Anger, Friendship, Religion.... I am such a heavily emotioned person. I need to start blogging real stuffs, in the real deal. Not all these nonsensical little rants. Sigh.

Goodbye my blog. Farewell til' we meet again. Au revoir.

Fatuous imbecile.

Do not aggravate me for the next few days, weeks and months. One day when all your scandalous little confidential news becomes big, notorious news... Mark my words, your associates will never ever feel trepidation. In fact, a deep sense of resentment and wrath in place of this apprehension feel towards you. You and your ostentatious personality, you and your cynical self , I downright despise it. I hope you get a grip on yourself and realize how sinister you are. Narcissistic little brat, you are an irate.

Metaphorically incorrect.

I saw a cat today. The apple cat. The cat had many dogs surrounding it. The cat seemed very grape. The cat was different from the other dogs. Not a single sense of strawberry. The cat was grapely meowing to the dog and the dog was laughing while barking to the cat They may or may not understand each other. But I guess the cat is grape and why does the monkey still wants to sleep with the cat?
I saw a hippopotamus too. The hippo was minding its business. The hippo was strutting everywhere, lonely. The hippo was very vain. The hippo kept looking at itself. The hippo actually is kinda banana. The monkey still wants to eat with the hippo.
Then I saw a pig. The pig is no where as apple as the cat and no where as banana as the hippo. The pig had nothing to back itself up. The pig was a little useless. The pig is a desperate kiwi. but the pig is not apple, neither is it banana. The pig is so orange and the pig wants to change. Why isn't the pig banana or apple. Why orange. The pig is never a grape pig.
Today the pig has realized that the pig should carry on with it's life and care less about fruits and animals before it gets slaughtered.

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O hi. Metaphorically incorrect post up above. On my way home on a cab. The smell STENCH of cigar is so overwhelming in this cab that I feel like punching the cab drivers face and give him a bloody lecture about smoking. I'm so against smoking.









because of you

Bigdreams.

I want to explore the world. Go to LA for NYFA. Go on broadway. People will pay to see me, unlike you assholes who get stuck inside cubicles, staring at the computer in four walls. I want to explore the world and be on stage. I want everyone to see me act, I don't want to be stuck in the common dream in the office.

I won't be fucking looked down upon once I get my bloody Doctors degree.

Naïveté

I can't comprehend the disappointment I have in you. I thought you've changed. Wishful thinkings. Dreaming and dreaming til' it seems so real. Guess I was wrong. Guess I've always been wrong.

Fuck this blog. I sound like an idiot who can't control her emotions and is always sad and angry. Ha-ha.

Or maybe I really am an idiot who can't control her emotions and is always sad and angry... Hmm.

Mhm.

There are some things I really wish I had never known. Some things I really wish I had followed that little voice in my head. What's worst? Feigning ignorance or revealing motives?

It takes two people to make a lie work, the one who says it and the one who believes it.

Someone please cut off my throat now. It's very painful and I can't take it any longer. I can no longer cough, swallow, talk or do anything strenuous to my throat now. So long as it involves my throat, it seems like I'm dying. I can't even yawn.

I coughed out blood too. Just now. normal? Don't know. God.

I'm not gonna talk at all tomorrow. Hopefully my throat'll be better on Friday. Horrible tonsillitis.... I wish I could cut off my throat right now. Even if it hurts during the process. Afterall, 长痛不如短痛. Hahaha fuck but imagine me not talking..... Interesting hahahahh.

It's fucking Wednesday and I'm not having any full exposure feel to march holidays. Bloody AEM :( Though today was fun! I wish the fun we had today will be however we feel everyday. Cave Maze & Rock wall hehe wooo.

#TeamVETTAI < I feel like a fucking nerd to be hash tagging on blogger. Twitterwhoreeee. Hahahahhah k bai. I GO SLEEP NOWS. ;______;

Naïveté.

I hope one day you'd know the reason why I did it. I hope you'll know. Maybe I shouldn't have. But I just want you to know that however you think it is right now, it isn't. Blame my jealousy and fear of losing you. I've probably instilled the thought in you. I don't know. Can't comprehend the disappointment I am feeling, ugh.

Edwin

HELLO EDWIN KOH JUN LUN <3. hahahahaha. Okbai!

You've got to give me the girl or I'll take her from you.

Why, hello. Though I blogged this morning, I just felt like I should blog right now too. Having a little blog craving. Feels like I need somewhere to de-stress, to disconnect from the world, just typing out words, not even checking back and re-reading my posts to see if I have had made any errors. I just need somewhere, someone to talk to.

What a bore. I wish someone would rip out my throat right now. BIG SIGH. I hate sore throats, honestly. I really really really do. Pitter-patter goes the rain. I like the sound. Makes me feel good and refreshed that I'm indoors and there's rain out there. Just shows that I should sleep.

Haaaa. it's 8:55... A little insatiable longing for you every time I see 855. I miss you, and a part of me hasn't let go. Guess I should. How many time have I told myself not to blog about you or not even speak of you? Time and again, I'm coming back due to little nonsensical minute details like the time being 8:55 or the date being 23.

I can't believe I just blogged that out. Ha. Imagine anyone saw that and told him, I'd be like all fml.

Well, anyway.

I'm not really feeling well right now. I really feel very bad right now. To hell with how my immune system is so weak. To hell with everything.

OKAY. Time to go, I guess. Just wanted to update this blog, make it more lively and stuffs. I'm really trying to update my blog as much as possible from now onwards!

Overwhelmed.

in a corner of a dark room, a little light may be good... - I'm scared. A little girl trying to find a stand in this world. Trying to go somewhere. Trying to be known. But yet, time and again, she finds herself in the corner of a dark room.

Overwhelmed, I say. Overwhelmed. On the train towards woodlands. Feeling so sick. I can't even lift my head up so I'm pretending to blog. Using my every possible force to type out this blog post. I am aching. all over. If only I could just close my eyes right now.... And just lay down, listen to the announcer, listen to wails of little children, people on the phone, the loud booming noises coming from earphones... I just want to ignore the world for once. Maybe I just care too much.

I won't fidget. Be it the announcer announcing that it's the stop at woodlands, be it the fact that it's a crowded train at 8:07AM.

I just want to close my eyes, hold both my hands together, say a prayer, exhale, lie down, and not fidget at all.

Overwhelmed, i need to find a way back to the world and stop living in my imaginations.

Forever, in this corner of a dark room.

OHGOD.

HELLO MY LITTLE INACTIVE BLOG. I'M BACK HERE AGAIN TO BLOG. DON'T YOU LIKE MISS ME.

Okay, so apart from updating my life, today I just feel lazy. I just want to blog out my inner frustrations right now. But sadly, I don't have any 'inner frustrations'. Not exactly frustrated at all right now. But I just wanted to pen down feelings. It's this feeling where you really feel so heavy inside but you just don't know what's the cause of it. Lately, I've been feeling this a lot. Maybe it's just me feeling tired. Haha.

ALRIGHTY, ANYWAY. It's March 12, 2012. And that means it's the first day of my March holidays! My MARCH anticipated march holidays... HEHEHEHE. Sadly, I have devoted my March holidays in to the bloody AEM course :( and hence I won't have time to catch up on my sleep, my studies and worst of all... MY SLEEP. Reemphasize SLEEP with bold, caps, italic, underline and all those shiz. Okay. :(

It's currently 9:19 and I am just like sitting down on my bed blogging out because I know my blog isn't gonna update itself. ( GOD. HOW COOL WOULD IT BE IF MY BLOG COULD AUTOMATICALLY UPDATE ITSELF. IT'D BE A FREAKING GENIUS. LIKE IT CAN UPDATE WHATS FRUSTRATING ME, WHAT'S MAKING ME LAUGH AND ALL, ALL IN THAT MOMENT. That'll save all the hassle of me turning on my computer, clicking google chrome, typing in Blogger.com and all the other troubles!)

So anyway, I got back my results last friday, and it wasn't anywhere near satisfactory. Haha. Although I faired 14th position in class, it still wasn't good enough for me. I failed literature :(. How saddening and it totally dampened my mood.

Right after receiving my report card, and chapel, I had drama auditions. And it was great! I can't wait to see the new faces in the Drama room for me to torture every Friday!! Hahahaha. I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait! This little excited saddistic soul can't wait to torture a fresh batch of secondary ones. hoho.

But as we all know... Once the Secondary Ones come in, the Secondary Fours go out.... BOOHOO. I can't imagine the DRAMA CLUB without my sec foursssssssssssss.

So yeah, then I had Camp which was pretty fun :). Was pretty exhausted when I came back on Saturday that I had about close to 13hours of sleep straight. hahah! It was a gooooooooooooooooooooooood sleep. I skipped church on sunday due to my aching body which really didn't want to cooperate with me and didn't want to get up...

Went to a eating place at Tiong Bahru at night for dinner and went to Urban spoon at jln kayu for drinks afterwards! So ya.............

AND HERE IT COMES, THE MONDAY. WHICH IS TODAY. I had AEM. And still probably tired due to the camp over the weekends, I couldn't exactly get up. Fortunately, my dad sent me to the MRT station so I wasn't late. :).

My legs got soooooooooo vandalized and messed uppppppp.

Just look at that horrible disgrace!! And I was like walking around AMK Hub with that horrible disgusting legs and everyone was like

Gossiping &

Yeah. Being all like What the fuck? Is wrong with her legs. Hahahahah!

So yes, this pretty sums up how my life has been like since Friday.. Oh and I'm so proud of the Drama Club for their show MSL2 on Friday! Big round of applause to my big family of close to 40 members! LOVEZZXCWSXCDW

Hehehhee. Okay! Time to go. A really short update but still... I'll try to blog much, much, much more. :D Hehehe. And hopefully, this time, this won't be an empty promise!

OH AND A LITTLE UPDATE,

I will be closing DD and continue using SH. SH has already adopted the whole DD theme, and hence I shall just delete DD :).

Goodbye my readers. I shall go off to sleep now as I'm really tired, though I really wish that I could continue blogging. I will try to come back ASAP!

AHHHH DYING OF CUTENESS. EXACTLY WHAT IM GONNA DO NAO. SLEEP. OKAY BYE! xoxo.

*PS. Although I said I wasn't going to update my life, I just felt like I should halfway while blogging because I love you guys so much and I know you guys would love to stalk me ;-).

*PPS. Ohmygod I can't believe my stats are still increasing! You guys still read my blog!

*PPPS. Love you guys.

*PPPPS. I like corn.